I live in wisconsin and there is this girl that I am absoloutly in love with and according to her she is in love with me. Her name is Allison, just the sound of her name brings chills to my back (the good kind) there's olnly one problem. she has a boyfriend. His name is Matt. every time I have ever seen him he has been a complete dick to me. even when I was helping him move a pool table. Now I really don't like him and he really doesn't like me either since someone caught me and his girlfriend making out in the car in a parking lot and told him about it. I am in a work program until may and she doesn't finish school until the middle of june and she and I want to move to california. I asked her what would happen if she was still dating Matt and she said waving her hand "buh bye matt." Well a few days later he proposed to her. When I asked her what she said to Matt when he Proposed she said she told him she had to finish school and wasn't sure what she was doing afterward. I have had sex with her only onceand i felt horrible about it because I am not the only one she is sleeping with. I know she is with Matt but i feel that i need to do everything I can to make our relationship stronger than theirs and maybe she will cut it off with him and I can finally show the world how much I love her. I am sick of hiding it from my friends but I have to because they are all friends with Matt. She seems to be everything I have ever needed. When I am with her I have no past, No future, and No problems. But I have been hurt in the past. very hurt. I kind of wonder if waiting is worth it. I mean If I have to wait a million years I will, as long as I can be with her in the end. I seem to sound greedy when I say I want her but I know I am better for her than he is. I can treat her with the love and respect she deserves. I can feel When she Isn't feeling right and I do my best to fix it. Being with her would be the greatest end to any fairy tale ever written. We share oppinions, emotions and Ideas every time we are together and I just wish there was something I could do. I have Ideas but i dont want them to backfire and kill any chance i may have had. Please someone give me some type of advice. and good luck to all of you in your relationships now and in the future. I apologize for the length.
