Well, I have a question. I've tripped acid twice, and the second time I tripped with my boyfriend. It was really fun at first, but then he started getting into the true depth of our relationship and all teh lies that have been told and what not, and called me out several times. During these times, my heart would drop, the room would go silent, and I would feel fucking akward as hell, like the whole world was staring at me. They were horrible feelings. Now, I still get them, like if I crack a joke and no one laughs, my heart drops, and I feel like my brain goes silent and I feeel so akward. It's the exact feeling, sometimes they are random, but they usually occur in times where I was talking and no one responded, or somehting like that. Has anyone had this happen, am I just imagining this, or is it a possible side effect of the trip? I dont know a whole bunch about acid, my first trip was amazing, but if anyone could answer me, it would be AWESOME, i want to trip again, I just have a fear that it could turn out like the last one and have similar effects. PLEASE ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There's every possibility that these are long term effects of what you went through on the trip. I too had a bad experience on acid, and suffered after-effects that were sort of similar to the ones you describe. I didn't trip for like 4 months or so, and then I tripped again last week. I experienced some similar thoughts to the trip before, but the fear was completely gone. Tripping again definitely helped me, but in your case I would advise that you sort your emotional issues out before tripping again. You've obviously told some serious lies to your boyfriend, and I won't beat about the bush, that was a terrible thing to do. It's something that on the surface you think you can brush off, but acid can make you look at who you really are, and deep down you probably feel awful for certain things you've said and done. You desperately need to resolve those feelings to the point at which you can feel truly good about yourself and your life. If there are things your boyfriend should know that you're keeping from him, you're not going to be at peace with yourself until you tell him those things, or can otherwise fully resolve the issue with yourself. This goes for any other part of your life that, deep down, you know isn't right. Good luck with sorting yourself out, and don't be afraid to trip again, but remember, if you're not truly at peace with yourself and everyone around you, acid will take you to bad places.
thanks, yeah, ive been honest with him for a while, we went through a period where I had done somethign with another guy, but it was a period of time while we werent going out, and he wouldn't get back together with me as much as I begged. That was fine, but then I lied about it when we got back together, and have worked through it since, I have a horrible habit of telling white lies though, I have recognized the problem though and am really making an effort to do better, needless to say I havent quit telling them cold turkey, but I am weening myself off them, it sounds pitiful, but I think its insecurites I have about myself that make me tell these little lies, and I need to take small steps to get to complete honesty with otehrs and myself.
bad feelings like the good go away with time. i once took some and for about 2 weeks after i always though i was swallowing something
