I have never been in love.

I am in my young twenties. I have never been in love. I haven't explored much sexually either. I still own the V card unfortunately. I don't know what it is with me. I am deathly afraid to take it to the next level with anyone I find attractive because I have no past experience. I think I am gay but how can I be 100% positive when I still have feelings towards both women and men. With women I always seem to stall about taking it to the next level. Like there is this attraction between the both of us but I never have the balls to even lean in for a kiss. Now there is this girl I have been hanging out with lately that I find a little bit attractive but I am not sure what to do about it. Maybe I should just go with it and see what happens. That scares me though.

I have unfortunately met a few guys from the online chats, but that was just physical stuff. I have found that men in those chats are just a bunch of horn balls usually.

So what do I do? I wish I could just tell the girl, "Hey, I don't know what I am doing. Help me out!" But what girl wants to hear that? Girls want a man who can take the lead, and since I have no experience, it's so hard for me to do so.

 

First of all there is nothing bad about as you put it still owning the V card in your 20's Also it could be that you are possibly Bi or Bi curios or just plain old beating yourself up for being a virgin. You will know when you are ready to toss that card persay. If you like the girl go for it go ahead and kiss her. If she respects you the fact you are a virgin won't matter if anything maybe it may even releave her of feeling the pressure of weather or not she is going to be expected to put out or not. As for the the men you have seaked out in the chats maybe you are just curious and there is no harm in that. Just don't sell yourself short because you are uncertain about your sexuality right now. I didn't know I was Bi until about 2 years ago.