I'm an alcoholic

i feel ya girl. i aint nothing but a lush

 

Hey cosmic**girl! It's good to hear from you! I'm glad that you're doing ok. It was tough around New Years for me too, luckily I was sick and couldn't get off the couch to party. I've been on the edge of starting up again myself. I can't deal with stress without drinking, and I've been fighting with my parents a lot lately so it's been tough. Talk to you soon! Peace!

 

I wish you all the best , think you're strong enough to overcome this. Oh, and yes, it's a really good idea to avoid any contact with alcohol since one takes the decision to quit drinking. In fact it's the only way. Go on and make us proud, sister

 

dont listen to this cat.... mama
i am very very proud of you
you have a beautifully strong head
stay on the path your on an only good
things shall come from it
blessed be and my energy is with ya
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Thank you for all the support you guys have been sending. measa: You're message got me teary eyed, I really appreciate it.

I got caught walking to a meeting last night. My dad screamed his head off, and my mom beat me up. My dad was angry, but he used to drink and smoke a lot of pot back in his day, so he's being understanding. My mom on the other hand thinks I have a mental problem but not a drinking problem, and is sending me to a psychiatrist. I just have to lay low, do what they tell me to do, and I should be out of trouble within the next month or so. The thing that hurts the most is that they're not letting me go to anymore meetings, and I'm not allowed to talk to my sponsor anymore. I talked to my dad and he said that I can call my sponsor only once in a while as long as my mom doesn't find out. I have to go to work, but I'll write again soon. I have 40 days today! Much love to all of you kind folks out there!

 

Good luck to you, sweetie. If you want it to happen for you, it will. I hope you are able to find happiness in life. Life isn't so bad afteall. It has it's ups and horrid downs, but it's better than being dead anyday!

 

It's great to hear that you're trying to improve your life. Your struggle against your drinking problem is really inspiring... if you give in to your desires, they will control you, but when you fight against them, you gain strength until eventually you will triumph completely. I have a really addictive personality, and I've been addicted to everything from pot to masturbation to binge eating in my day (not alcohol, surprisingly... I guess a family full of alcoholics has scared me away from it, that and the fact that i found pot first), so I know where you're coming from. Eastern thought (Buddhism, etc.) has played a major role in the conquering of my addictions. I think conquering an addiction requires a lot of real belief. It can come from religion, or from the support of a friend, lover, or family member... it sounds like the support of your sponsor has done wonders for you. It's extremely closed-minded of your mother to disapprove of your AA activities. You know you have a drinking problem, and you want to get rid of it, and you know that this has been working for you. So, I saw talk to your sponsor as much as you can, whenever you can get away with it. Play your mom's game so as not to rock the boat, but you know what's best for you when it comes to your alcoholism. Anyway, my thoughts and love are with you, and anyone else struggling with the same thing. Anyone who wants to talk about an addiction or anything else for that matter, feel free to PM me

 

I f*cked everything up today, and I'm really depressed. I had a hellish day at work, and I came home and made love to a bottle of Grand Marnier I found in our garage. Instead of locking up the liquor in our house, my dad gave some away, and then hid some in the garage. I was looking for something, and I found his special bottles he didn't want to lose. I'm under the influence, and angry, not a good combo. I'm starting over fresh tomorrow, but for tonight I just have to stay out of trouble. My head is spinning, blech.

 

First off,

{{{big hugs for you}}} I am one person who knows what it is like to fall.
I have had a problem with drinking since I was 14 as well. And unfortunately that means i have been drinking for 25 years. I am now trying to quit myself. I have found a woman that cares for me deeply. She is the first in my life, (ex-wife included), that has cared enough to stay on me about it. It is a VERY difficult thing to do is quit.

Do not beat yourself up for falling we all do.

*extends hand to help you back up*

I have now been sober for 4 days as I type this. It is very difficult to quit and I know this.Especially since my roomate is an alcoholic too.
If you ever need some support, I as a fellow alcoholic will be there for ya. There is someone here that is my support and my hand back up when I fall. I don't know what she will think if she sees this. But if you need a hand there are many like me who will help you.

I need help and encouragement too,and I have had it from one.She even prayed for me. I have been sober since ,but I know I'll fall again. I am human too sweetie.
All of us addicts need to stick together and recover together. Then maybe someday we will all be well.

I love you and wish the best for you.

Peace,

J-56

p.s. please quit now,don't wait 25 years like I did. It is MUCH harder to quit then.

 

well dun for that

i hope so

i love you too

i'll be here for you
{{{hugs}}}
*holds you close*

remember everyone and i give my self the same advice here
DON'T GIVE UP!!
IT WILL GET BETTER, I PROMIS YOU THAT!!
ALL OF YOU!
lets go get our lifes back!! what do ya say?

 

*Reaches out to hug jamphan and lizzie*

I really appreciate the support you guys! I've had a rough day, but I managed to stay sober. I had a nice long talk with my sponsor and her boyfriend (who is also in AA). They really helped to verbally kick my ass. They're encouraging me to be honest with my parents, and to do whatever I can to get the help I really need. My parents refuse to listen to what I have to say. They think I'm being dramatic, and that I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill. I can't truly express the pain I'm going through right now.

It's good to know that I'm not alone out there. Addictions are very difficult to deal/live with, and I have failed many times. I had been sober since sometime in January I think, and I screwed it up yesterday.

Jamphan: I love you too bro! The first few days are always the hardest. Alcohol was my crutch for a long time, and it was hard to think of life without it. I'll be praying to my higher power for you too J! I know that we can kick this thing! We just have to believe that we can. My heart reaches out to you, because I know what you must be going through. If you ever need to vent, I know I need to blow off steam every once in a while, you can always PM me. If you want I can PM you my e-mail if you'd rather do that. I don't know you personally, but I feel like I do. Let's help eachother get up, and stay standing for good!

To lizzie: In my heart I know we'll all be alright again someday. I'm with you lizzie! I want my life back too!

Much love to you!

 

thats really great!!!

 

well, unfotunately i fell the other nite,and was a bit embarrassed to post here. i found it necessary to open a bottle of wine with my dinner. "a glass or two wont hurt anything right?"

well a full liter of red wine later, i was pretty smashed. as i said before, this aint gonna be easy.

i still have the support of one person who has forgiven me for it, but it just shows that i am weak. i know i will probably fall yet again, and if it weren't for the support she gives i would probably fall right back into my old ways. therefore i will support you if you need it. i know how it feels to need support. i still need it too.

if we all stick together we will beat it i know.



much love

i do understand

good luck

j-56

 

How are you jamphan? Please don't ever be embarassed to post here. I started this thread to talk about situations like this so that we can support eachother. I agree with you 100%, this really "aint gonna be easy". I'll be praying to my higher power for you. Don't beat yourself up about taking a few steps backwards. We're only human, and humans are extremely prone to making mistakes. I'm glad that you have someone in your life that supports you, and cares about you, even when you fail. We all need someone like that. For me, that person has been my sponsor. My parents don't want to face the fact that I have a problem, but my sponsor does and she helps me through thick and thin. It's way too hard to fight these demons alone. Best of luck to you jam! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

We shall overcome someday!

Peace and empathy,
Alyssa

 

I am too, I'm also an asshole.

 

When battling any addiction, it's so important to try as hard as possible not to take any steps backwards, but then if you do slip up, you MUST realize that it's ok and then RIGHT THE SHIP... it does not have to be all or nothing - it doesn't have to be "drink" or "don't drink." If you slip up and have a bottle of wine, that sucks, but then the next day don't just say "screw it!" and get more because you're already slipped up, you have to keep fighting, even if you have right the ship regularly, as long as you right the ship, you're on the right path... and your slip ups will quickly become less frequent. I guess what I'm trying to say is that slip ups are bad but they can be easily overcome PROVIDED one slip up isn't used as an excuse for another/further regression...

I have my own vices I too am trying to get a handle on, so I feel for you guys and I'm sending good vibes to ya. Just be strong, look at yourself in the mirror, and realize that you need NOTHING outside of your own mind to be happy... no external thing will ever satisfy that hole you seek to fill be drinking.

 

Good luck, it sounds like you could stop drinking.

 

http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=229208
It looks like one of our brothers needs us.

P.S. I hope you don't mind ashbury, but the posters here have really helped me out, and I'm sure they would be glad to support you too. Much love.

 

Good luck to all the alcoholics out there. I know how hard it is for people to cope with it and then get over it. There is a long line of alcoholics in my family and I've seen them all go through their stages. It can be a vert sad sight but the thing you have to do is reach out and admit you need help and not to be afraid to.

 

There really isn't a definition on alcoholic, a lot of people tell me I'm one but I dissagree, to each his own I guesse, if you're really pissed off about it and can't control yourself you think, go to Ireland, highest alcohol consumption in the world.


I love Ireland.