i haven't gotten laid in over a year.

summer of '05 was the last time i got any action, and it wasn't even particularly satisfying.

i'm very outgoing with people i already know, but am extremely reluctant to make new acquaintances no matter how much i want to.

i would give anything to meet my "dream girl," but quite honestly i'd settle for less at this point if for nothing more than some caring physical contact, sexual or not.

its extremely infrequent for me to have any kind of physical contact with a person beyond something like a handshake. it's painful at times.

oh well...i can't always have exactly what i want...there are some serious benefits to being a recluse and a loner....but i pay a very significant price for it, too, and i can't really see myself changing much in this regard anytime soon.

 

Hm, sorry to hear that you are resistant to change, there are plenty of good people around here, and more than a few attractive and cool women as well.

You have looks and intelligence so I'm sure that if you put yourself out there a little more, you would not have much trouble.

I think that you will eventually break out of this phase you are in, but who knows, I guess some people are meant to be hermits. I am just not one of them, i am pretty social by nature.

 

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i never said i dont masturbate. almost everyone does, whether they admit it or not.

its not simply sex i need, and even if it was masturbation has its limits....it's not as great a feeling to fall asleep with your hand, after all. and i can't have a good conversation with myself, either. and so on and so forth.

its not that i'm dying to ejaculate, i'm dying to have some female companionship, both sexual and otherwise.

i'm just inordinately self-conscious and reluctant to go out and have fun, no matter how much i want to. and when i do go out, crowds or people i dont know well put me off a bit and can often be pretty overwhelming. not always, and not to a degree that i'd say i have a problem like panic attacks or anything...just enough to make me pretty unhappy a large amount of the time.

and i have a number of things going really well for me in my life....but it just hurts for me to be lonely even though i feel like theres little i can do about it.

besides, the people that have influenced me the most, whether friends or more, i have always met serendipitously....i have never had success with trying to find a friend or lover, and its EXTREMELY rare for me to meet someone cool simply by going out.

whatever, i just needed to vent was all.

 

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I survived 15 years without sex... there's nothing to be ashamed of.

 

I understand what you mean. I have my friends trying to set me up on one night stands..and taking me out clubbing..but large groups scare me..and i'm not the type of girl interested in a quick fuck..i want someone that i can talk to and discuss things with more than "hey wanna fuck?"..i haven't had any since last july..and i don't see any action in my near future..so i understand where you are coming from

 

Nesta you arent missing out on much, For once in my life since I was 15 I am finally single, and that I have a son is the best part I need a MAJOR break from women, I realize now how much personal growth has been held back since my time was devoted to girls for the past 6 years. I can understand feeling lonely but those feelings only effect you at certain times of the day, which could be replaced with intense study and practice, so that when you meet this "dream girl" you will be ready for her and actually deserve her Where my life is headed now, I dont think there is a perfect girl for me, and if there is, she will most likely prevent me from progressing down the path that I have taken in life, and trust me it is not a selfish, personal path