Latley i have been thinking about what happens after death, and how much pain life is worth; and why not end all that pain right now?, the only thing i know for sure right now is that the only reason that im alive right now is the fear of what might happen after death, and that makes me feel like im stuck in life. And that is such a claustrophobic feeling....anyways, whats you point of view of death and what happens after death...
Just thought I would mention, for what it's worth, that when I was three years older than you, I decided that it wasn't worth living. That was 33 years ago. I suppose you're wondering how I like being dead, now that I've had a few decades to try it out? Well I'm sorry to disappoint you, but actually I stuck around in life. I decided that things couldn't get worse than that, and they might possibly get better. As it turns out, they got much better--sometimes. I've had some experiences that I believe made all the hell worthwhile. I've also had a lot more hell since then, sometimes. And it wasn't the last time I thought about ending it. But one thing is obvious: If you end it, you'll never know what might have happened if you'd stuck around. Anyway I don't know what death is like. I do believe there is some continuation of awareness in some form. But without a body to screen perceptions, what would that be like? The reason I believe that awareness continues is that from my experience, awareness is not necessarily attached to and dependent on a physical body. Otherwise how could I have been in my girlfriend's head and seen what she saw through her eyes when I was two thousand miles away? That was an amazing experience, and that didn't happen until 18 years after I decided not to end it all.
I agree: if you decide to end your life now, i'll never experience the things that are ahead... even if they bring pain to ya.... pain is life! You can't avoid it... you should learn how to manage it. I think about death often. Everything depends on your phylosophy or religion... I believe life has no end and death is a sorta new stage in it... So you know you'll alw have time to learn what death is, it's inescapable... But you can miss the things you should experience and enjoy on this planet.
i kjnow what you mean, for many years ive been suicidal on and off. i came very close once to acually dieing, i no longer feel like i want to kill myself tho, im sure the thought will come into my head tho every once in awhile tho. but now, my irrational fear of death has turned me into quite the hypocondriac. which im also slowly getting over now as well.
Hey, man. Sorry to hear about how you feel. If it helps any, I hope things start looking up for you in the near future - and if you off yourself, it would be a shame to never see what COULD have happened for you, eh? I wish you the best, dude.
