I told you I wasn't a fatalist. I know there are decent people out there, and I knew I would be able to find them. And I did -- I found one, a new one. He's sweet and kind to me, demure, with a dry sense of humor and a great laugh. He likes to cuddle and we seem to fit together really well. The problem is, neither of us are very trusting people ... we've both been really hurt before. (Here's a little story, which you can skip if you want: Initially he could not believe that I liked him and wanted to be with him ... I tried to persuade him and it seemed to work ... but then, after we spent a normal night together, my roomate accused him of stealing her wallet (which he didn't do, and I know because he was never out of my sight), and when I tried to defend him she had me taken to the psych ward. Of course, he was a bit unnerved (we had planned to go to dinner, but instead he had to wait for me to get psychiatric clearance!) ... but within a few days we had sort of patched things up ... except now I can't believe that he would want to be with me again after that. We're sort of back at Square One, or Two, whereas we'd been at Square Five or Six.) Is there a chance for strange, wary people like us? [And as an abstract ... why do bizarre circumstances seem to follow me? Like seriously ... this is kinda funny, I'm not complaining, but dude. I didn't even DO anything this time. ]
You know, this is actually sort of a foolish wondering ... Really, what would I be accomplishing by hanging on? Would it be more painful -- for either of us, but mostly him -- to try to continue this?
Suncatch - Maybe Your Roommate Should Be The One In The Psych Ward, Or You Should Get A New Roommate. Sounds Like A Good, Budding Romance. Concentrate On Building Up Mutual Trust.
