About 17 days ago, I stopped masturbating. I hadn't had sex in over a year and thought myself pitiful for masturbating all the time. I usually did it once a day. Sometimes it was the highlight of my day, a fact I came to hate. Just looking at the porn I usually watched didn't even arouse me anymore. It just made me sick (not literally). I couldn't believe this is what I had to do to get off. So I just plain quit. End of story. Not by mere coincidence, but I went on some medication a few weeks prior to my masturbation strike. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and severe depression and was given a prescription to follow. The pills work great. I don't feel nervous around ANYBODY now and I feel I can be myself. This isn't necessarily related to masturbation, but I always knew what type of guy I was, only there were these mental ailments that kept getting in the way of me being myself. I had to try rediculously hard to be myself sometimes in social situations, often exhausting myself at the end of it all and sometimes having to quit my charade early because I couldn't keep on faking it for people. I think masturbation is healthy and fine in moderation, and my psychologist told me that I could do it as a form of release, but I just don't want to get off that way. I want to only have sex or do something sexual with another person, not my own hand. I'm doing much better talking to girls, probably way too good, and I feel like I'm this close to going out with a lot of them. I just want to wait... but there's a problem. I keep thinking about sex and it clouds my mind. I think about it every minute or so... I don't want to masturbate. I... don't want to... masturbate.
There is nothing wrong with masturbasting as a form of sexual release, and it is healthy for a guy to do so every week, to eliminate manufactured sperm from the testicles. If you have not masturbated for 17 days, you have a huge sperm buildup which has given you "blue balls". Get rid of that sperm right away, and then move on to a normal sex life with the opposite sex.
I tried stopping a few times when I was a kid, was never very successful at it. I wouldnt worry about a sperm buildup, your body takes care of it naturally with wet dreams.
Well, believe it or not, it's much easier to put off masturbation once you've held it off for so long. I could go to sleep tonight without even an urge because I've fallen out of the habit. Of course, the habit can start up again as soon as I masturbate again. It's a vicious cycle. I don't have blue balls. I don't feel any pain in that area what-so-ever. And I'm actually starting to get used to all the hot tail around campus, so it's not like that movie 40 Days and 40 Nights where the guy is going mental because he needs sex. That was just because he had a rather high sex drive. I would settle for 3 times a week... Then again, even getting dates to committ is becoming a hassle in itself. I got two cancellations from two seperate girls. I'm good-looking, sociable, funny, witty, and charming (not to toot my own horn, but just so you can see the lopsidedness of my situation). I have no idea how to get a girl. I want to have sex, damn it. Is that really too much to ask?
Funny guy - join a number of campus groups that interest you, where there will be girls. Start up conversations with ones you like on areas of mutual interest. Coffee dates will turn into dates, which may turn into mutually enjoyable sex.
Oh yeah, that's why I wake up every morning ready to (excuse my french) 'bust a nut' about every girl I think about. You're totally right. Thank you, Mr. Knowitall. The drugs are Pexeva and Clonozapam. Jesus. I didn't have that many sexual dreams to begin with. Your whole argument is unfounded and pretty darn rediculous, to be honest.
Through my journey in this Masturbation Strike, I've discovered something. Masturbation is used as a substitute to sex. To involve no one in this process of sexual and emotional stimulation except strangers having sex in a porn video is what really turns me off--emotionally, anyway. Therefore, I think the purest, least disgusting way of performing masturbation is to involve someone else. "But Funny Guy," you might say, "that defies the very definition of masturbation." I don't mean physically involve someone. I mean emotionally involve someone... Perhaps thinking of someone who means a lot to you and you happen to find sexually attractive is the purist way to masturbate... Then again, I'm still going strong. I want to find out all the answers. I'm going to at least push till 30 days. I just hope I don't get hurt, physically, in the process.
There's nothing wrong with whacking off. If pron creeps you out, just don't think of anything. Whack off because it feels good. And go get some ladies.
