I had a dream last nite that made me really realize how i view a good friend of mine. Little background first, though. Last year as a High School Senior, I was good friends with a girl 2 years younger than I. Her dad was my cross country and track coach, and I got along with him very well. Her name is Andrea. She's beautiful physically to me. Not hott, like I would say of a model, but beautiful. I love the way she curves, how her body fits close to mine when I held her. She asked me to our prom last year, and of course I went with her. This was the best nite I've had either before or since. No sex, not even a kiss, but it was perfect. Anyway I went to her house once a week, usually on a Friday nite, and we just hung out. So that summer I went off and had sex with some other people, just one nite stands. I didn't realize it at the time, but Andrea thought we were dating. I felt horrible when I found out that she was under this impression. I didn't know until about 4 months ago. About 5 months ago I was very drunk and called her and told her that we were only friends because I wanted sex. I don't think this is true. Never felt worse in my life. Now, to the dream. It was me and about 5 friends from high school, and we were just out walking around a hiking trail. I knew Andrea was with us, but hadn't seen her. She was talking with her other friends, I suppose. We stopped at a very nice rock outcropping, right next to a small creek. It was foggy, one of those peaceful, calming mists that just seperates all daily cares. I suddenly found myself sitting next to her, talking like we did (and haven't done since) almost a year ago. I looked at her, she was sitting beside me. We were both holding our knees about a foot from our chests, just sitting. I turned back to the creek for a second, than back to her. She had facial hair. Not a full beard, but half inch long, beard-like hairs rather thinly all over her face. But I took her and held her so tightly to my body. We sat like that, me holding her and her holding my hand for what seemed like forever. So I haven't talked to her much since last June. Then I went to college in KY in August, and I'm from PA. I guess I miss her, and don't know if I should tell her about the dream or not. I don't even know what it means, other than that she'll always be beautiful to me, not just physically. Thanks for listening. Just needed mainly to write this down. Kyle
