pregnant. . .

i posted in mental health a little earlier. just needed to freak out there a little bit.



i'm more than likely 8 months pregnant and no one but the boy knows. i've done a very good job to hide it. i tried to abort, but didn't have the money and home remedies didn't work. now i'm freaking out. my options seem to be have a retarted baby or death. everytime i try to talk to the boy about this he says "i don't want kids. i hate them." i love babies and i can't believe i've neglected this situation for so long. i haven't seen a doctor and haven't been taking care of myself. i'm scared that they;ll try to take the baby away if i have it. i just wanna die. not because i got pregnant. i can handle it, but becuase i let it go on for so long. i cut back my drinking and i stopped smoking. i don't do any drugs, but i can't live with myself if i'm the reason my childs messed up. i've been cutting myself as a stress reliever rather than a suicide attempt, but the cuts progressively get deeper.

i know not what to do...and i've never felt more alone than i do right now. i just needed to get this off my chest. i know i'm a bad person because of this. it's totally out of my character and i'll never understand why i've made this decision. i just hope life is over soon and that i don't have to ruin his life!!!

thanks for listening to my rant. i'm sure this post is going to piss off some of the mama's. i completely understand. it pisses me off.

 

I have no advice right now, for which I am truely very very sorry, but I just needed to say; honey, of course you are not a bad person! Please don't think this! Everyone makes mistakes, and so many women do when they find out they're pregnant. Lots of women have what seems to be completely crazy and out-of-character reactions in this type of situation, because they don't know how to deal with it. I promise you're not a bad person because of this, and wish you all the very best, however this turns out!
I know you can do this, and remember! Everything you need is within you

 

word, adoption agencies.

If nothing else, get yourself to a hospital when labour hits, have the babe, make sure you're ok and then leave... the child will be put into the adoption/foster system somewhere and be taken care of. If you aren't in a place to take care of the babe then the best bet is to leave him/her with someone who can look after him/her.

 

IMO= theres a lot of ppl in your situation.


But theres a lot of women that want to get pregnant that CAN'T. And for you not to take care of your body and well being especially for another human being is just inhumane. Get some help fast. If your cutting yourself thats not a solution. You may want to seek councelling or any other various help facailities.

Take care of yourself and know that there are ppl out there that will help you and your baby out.

 

Honey, get some counseling asap. It will help to talk to someone. Please get medical help when the child is born, and seek out an adoption agency before that happens. There are tons of resources out there if you are a birthmother who wants to give the child up for adoption adoption help

 

I agree. You can't heal from the things that cause you to cut and properly raise a child. It isn't your fault that you cut, but it isn't a healthy way to deal with stress.

Please, if there is ANY way to relieve your stress, it is to see a health care professional, and place the baby up for adoption. If you are cutting, you are not even able to take care of yourself. It doesn't make you a bad person, but it does make you a person who cannot care for a child at this time. You have no support even the father doesn't want the baby.

There is no evidence that you will have a "retarded" baby. But, when children are raised in a dangerous enviroment (no money, a mama with serious mental health issues, no one to help her, a child who wasn't wanted ect) the results can be WORSE than "retarded."

Please, as your health probably isn't good, don't try to ignore labor and not go to a hospital. Go there, and let them take care of the baby. Tell them you have no one to help you, you don't want the baby AND make sure they know you cut. There are people who would love this baby, and have the emotional ability to take care of it.

Please, get yourself to an Emergency Room NOW. You are cutting deeper and deeper, and you NEED help. You can't and shouldn't do it alone. Also, your life is no place for an innocent baby. PLEASE let someone else, who will be able to love the child, take care of the baby. Call 911 NOW. If you are "suicidal" (even if it isn't) they HAVE TO admit you. Once they know you are pregnant, things will be taken care of.

Please, think of the baby. And THEN work on yourself, without having to worry about feeding and caring for an other person. Someone else really needs to raise this child.

Blessings.

 

Please take care of yourself and do the right thing.

The environment you're in right now is probably not healthy for an infant, so I would suggest adoption. There are many people who want kids and would be happy to adopt your baby. You could even do an open adoption, if you still wanted to be in the baby's life.

But also.....take care of yourself. As someone who struggles with mental illness....I know. I've been there. Counseling and perhaps a referral to a good psychiatrist would do you wonders.

 

Stop! You are not a bad person and everyone has those times. Nothing, none of this is your fault! I might be able to help you ok? PM me a little later and Stop cutting youself, don't be stressed when I read that you wanted to keep the baby even if the dad didn't like him/ her ir made me so happy for you but not going to the doctors and hiding it can put u and the baby in danger.