What would you take to fall asleep and then just never wake up? Please dont come up with helping answers like "no its not the way" just fuckin do it.
are you determined to make a post in every forum about ways to kill yourself? if your actually going to kill yourself then whys it matter if its painfull or not. How can you care about whether its gonna hurt to die and not care about whether its going to hurt other people to see you die. grow up
Twizz, "It's only the things that drive you more and more openly to suicide, that in the end, save your life." The key is this, it's the things that drive you more openly to suicide that will save your life. If you were already truly resolved to kill yourself, you would already be dead, and if you can't be convinced to live soon, you most likely will kill yourself. All I ask is that you give me what may very well be some of your final moments to consider what I have to say. I was severely depressed for about 10 weeks and the end of last year. At the lowest, I spent two days in bed never completely awake or asleep, constantly contemplating if I should kill myself, and wishing I knew a way to end the pain. I can say without a doubt, that if I had enough Heroin around, I would have. I know how unhelpful the Helpy Helpertons of the world can sound when they say "talk to me". Maybe they don't understand; they wish they did, and you wish they did. You feel so alone, empty, and that life is meaningless. Severe (or clinical) depression isn't this state where you simply feel depressed, it feels more like being completely alone and unable to reach anything, an inability to care about life no matter how hard you try. And you do try! You try desperately, but it's just not enough. There is this feeling like your soul has been frozen over and incrusted in ice, and you just can't reach anything any more. You wish you could care about work, care about school, care about eating, and most importantly care about life-- living. But you can't, no matter how hard you try to reach it, it escapes and evades you. As you begin these final stages of your downward spiral, the math starts to work out; belive me, I've seen the equations for myself. You, in the most rational train of thought know that if you could find a way to take your own life, the pain would end. And it's true, the only immediate way to end your pain, is to kill yourself. Like I said the "equations" definitely work out, and it's not an irrational motivation. But don't fool yourself into thinking, that's the only way to end the pain. At this point you've been stuck in a negative feedback loop for so long, that only gets stronger and keeps re-enforcing itself, and it seems impossible to reverse it; but, it is possible. I found myself at the edge of the void, almost ready to do that ugly thing we both fear and desire. Three things helped me to initially pull myself out of the negative loop. The first was opening up to someone, anyone. I didn't tell this person I was depressed or suicidal, but just talking to them about my most superficial problems leading which they didn't know might quickly lead to my demise kept me living one more day at a time, and long enough to reach the next realization. The second was finding out that you're not alone, that many people battle depression and seduction of suicide. No two people are the same, but anyone who as been to edge and made it back will do anything in their power to help a fellow troubled soul. Whether it's buying them a bus ticket to get to a new place, or talking to them for hours on the phone. The third was finding the source of depression, and figuring out a way to combat it. This one is the hardest, and takes the longest, but as you work on it, each day gets a little more livable until, one day, you find youself in love with life again, or maybe in love with life for the first time. I know this may seem impossible now, but just hold on to one more day. One day at a time. I know it might seem fake or unrealistic, but without knowing you, I know what it was like for me; I want you to know that I honestly love you man, that I want you to find a way to relieve your pain, and most importantly that life can be worth living again! And, if there is ANYTHING I can do to help, please give PMing me a chance.
wouldnt you mix a coctail of opiates benzos and alcohol? id prefer to jump off a building on a tonne of adrenaline-pumping drugs and steroids
opiates+benzos+alcohol would def. be a among the greatest of peaceful exists, but that you mention death in a flaming moment of adrenaline would also be pretty satisfying I was always impressed with those monks who choose to use the end of their life in protest, burning themselves alive... "the will to do that, perfect..."-- apocolypse now
i'm sure if you popped 10-20 seroquel(sp?).. you would be left in a coma... No one's gonna bother me anymore No one's gonna mess with my head no more I can't understand what all the fightin's for But it's so nice here down off the shore I wish you could see this 'Cause there's nothing to see It's peaceful here and it's fine with me Not like the world where I used to live I never really wanted to live
Serious answer i was your age once.. and yea.. i deffinately had my days where i just wanted to say fuck it.. but then ya think about it.. and ya go "what the fuck!" this is nothing compared to what im gonna deal with later in life.. so ya laught sorta.. and think "why the fuck did this bother me" "and what would so and so think* and the tears flood in as you think of whom is close to you... then ya take a deep breath and smoke a bowl if ya wanna talk more... holla at your tokin bro Jman
