I Cry For Help! Please Help

My name is mike im 19 and i been living in extremely harsh conditions for almost like 2 years now living in a motel room payed by my father because he no longer wants me in the house because his wife was unhappy with my presence. When i was a bit younger i started to sence in my fathers wife an unconditional hatred vibe torwards me for some reason. when my father was at work she would call him on the phone angry and tell him stuff i never did that would get me introuble with my father. She wanted me out of the house over time so my dad decided he would rather his 2nd wife be happy and his blood son unhappy living in the city motel. i been in this motel room for about 5 months, i been living out of a suitecase for like 2 years, i also found needles and other pariphinalia under my hotel bed witch is extremely creepy to me, now i start to fear my life. anyway just recently my dad mentiond ssi(social security income) because of the severe conditions i live in... so i was interested but little did i know my father conned me into signing a social security mental disablity with the state. I was highly considering joining the military, but now i doubt i can join the airforce. He rushed me when i was signing the papers. I feel as if he did this out of his wifes spite to get back at me. My dad told me yesterday if i dont go to the psychiatric evaluaion to see if i quilify for section 8 housing he will terminate my phone communication service and he will terminate my current shelter. I dont want mental disablity, i was conned, i am not mentaly disabled there must be somthing i can do to save my ass before im in to deep. how can i let someone know i was conned into signing the papers how can i get off?! At this point the suffering and agony is becomeing to much for me to handle. I think my brain is naturaly residing to suicidal thoughts because of the overwhelming stress, i want my dad back i want my home back, i want my dog back, i need serious help. if anyone can comment on this please due so.
if anyone wants to talk more u can message me on myspace at www.myspace.com/hardhouse

 

the only thing i can say is that just because he is your dad doesnt mean you need him or should even care about him..that type of decision he made says something. follow your own path..look forward and learn from this experience. find your place we all have a place it just takes some searching.

 

Where is your mother?

Do you have good friends you can stay with or at least get emotional support from

Can you see a lawyer regarding what happened with your Dad...just to clarify where you stand with the law...

Am sorry for you.....do you have any brothers or sisters you can talk to?

 

You need some place where you feel that you can stay and have a shelter. probably it is possible to find good people, but it may take courage to go and try to reach people.

 

go to a fuckin friends house you dumb tard. get a job. wait fuckin tables, play guitar for dollars, fuck bum bus change from random people all day. i squatted, id be thankful for a hotel at times, make the best of it. get some beer. 2 years??? mabey its time to get a bus ticket to cali. go washington state, oregon, lots of hip people up there.

 

That's awful situation but there are definitely ways out of it. Just cut the ties with your dad. That would seem to be the first step.

 

you gota quit waitin 2 b rescued and fend 4 ur self.ive been on my own for years and when u get to a point that u can say u did it yourself youll feel better. i am proud i made it on my own cuz now i can own that.

 

Do you Work ?

 

and btw

you are not a dumb tard

and the poster of that comment....have a heart will you...that could be you one day...

never throw stones at glasshouses hey folks?

 

thats been me, man. fuck, still is, damn exwife, so frigged when she opened her legs the furnace cut on.

 

dude, if you're nineteen, your dad's still taking care of you, and you resent him for kicking you out of his home, you may have some issues you aren't aware of. suicide's pointless. you were old enough to take care of yourself at least 2 yrs ago, and if you aren't working, your dad doesn't seem like too bad of a guy. maybe he's tired of spending all the money he's earned on you. i don't mean to sound too harsh, but tough times are inevitable and necessary. make some phone calls-talk to a lawyer who will give you free legal advice. explain to him that your father misrepresented the information in the paperwork you signed, and you didn't look it over because you trusted him. take it from there, man. if you can't live on your own means, how do you think you're going to handle the military? maybe signing that piece of paper was a good idea.

 

pope man

if that has been you, then one would hope you migh learn some compassion...maybe?

and do you mean your ex wife is frigid (as in cold) or frigged?

 

exwife? long story.....
but i was cast out into the big bad world when i was 15, it took me a few months of squatting, but i got my shit together. well, not really together, i was content with where i was in life. theres bigger problems in this world than my family life. my firnds are more my family then my blood anyway. i was in the same position as you, and people took care of me, let me crash at their pad and i ended up staying past my welcome and lost a few friends that way. i needed someone to smack me in the face and tell me to take care of my own shit, which is what im trying to do to this kid(poster, cant remember name). and it sounds like you have mad depression problems, like me. i attemped suicide first time i was out on my own, sleeping in dumpsters. im not there with you, so i dont know the whole story, so i cant say either way, but it seems to me that you have to cut ties to your pops, and work on yourself, do some self-exploring, medations, yoga, read some books on shamanism. remember your physical body and this present life are jsut difficulties to accolplish. the real work is on the inside.

 

......and find love of course.....yes pope....inside and out......

for sure...

thanks for telling your story...

 

sarchism? or sincerity?- do you aggree though?

 

sounds just like my story, man-except i was 16. i agree-babying someone older than 16 just gives them a reason to be a baby. what happens when a baby crawls through a jungle? what about a warrior?

 

what is sarchism? And yes I am sincere?

do i agree,,,,what with love....yes I do....i work as a healer so I work with the love energy every day.

i love to see people feel loved...

its my thing...you know like some love drugs and booze...

well love is what I am into...it rocks me...

 

then i'm sure you understand the difference between coddling and love. sometimes, when you love someone, it means you must do what's best for them, not what's comfortable.

 

far out, man.

 

yes yyy.....of course....i try to live by that philosophy, and thanks I really needed to hear that today!

pope do you wear purple and red....too.....lol

yeah far out....I am the lovewoman....that is my name here....