I just wanted you all to know that I'm a very weird individual.. I like to switch from thought-to-thought very quickly.. I'm pretty laid back, until you hit that certain button to just make me go off all at once.. I'm horrible with girls, and this is mainly what I want to focus on. I feel that if I put it on the internet, and if SOMEONE reads it and takes it to heart, then I've done my job. I'm very nervous around people I don't know. Sometimes, it's hard to be myself, and it's extremely hard to have self-confidence. I used to think that this was because of the pot (I'm a heavy smoker), but lately, I just think it's my own crazy mind.. mostly. Once I get to know you, I loosen up A LOT and my goofy side comes out. However, I have a horrible case of social phobia in situations with lots of people I don't know. Also, I don't have very much confidence in my ideas, even if other people say they are good and support them.. For example.. when I get out of college, I don't want to have the traditional 9-5 job like everyone else.. first, I plan on traveling the world to see differerent sites, and then I plan on finding a nice, peaceful place to settle and build a home. I'll probably camp out in a tent, or have a temporary settlement while I'm not at my house. . . Eventually, I would like to live in either one of the following: a teepee, a log cabin, a cob house, or an underground home (as long as it was well supported). But ANYWAYS, back to the other topic: girls. I haven't had a serious girlfriend in about 2 years, and I've kinda just isolated myself from any other possible relationships. I always seem to think that I don't have any chance with the girl, that she's way too out of my league, or that I'm too goofy and she'd never want to be with a guy like me. However, I know if I can hang out with a girl for long enough, these feelings will mostly go away. I think it all stems from me being very sensative to certain topics, including sex, sexual acts, and how to initiate them without being awkward or too hasty. I think that after I have sex with one girl, I will be good at it and not be nervous. It's just that one time that I have to get past. So long story short, I need to find a girlfriend who can listen to all of my emotional bullshit, so I have another outlet for it. For now, I can stick to writing it down (I usually keep these types of writings personal, but what the hell.. none of yall know me anyways). Alright, so you heard my personal problems... respond with what you think!
(shouldnt this post be in the personal forums? just curious) You put it right out there didnt ya lol. Good for you
you sound a lot like me five months ago. it's just whatever man. ya gotta learn to just loosen up. i went from being crazy and wild when i was young to socially conservative and shy/awkward like you describe, but now just screw it man it's whatever. i don't want to be like that anymore. just try doing stuff that makes you feel uncomfortable like talking to strangers or hitting on girls you don't know like in the mall or something. it's whatever man
I'm exactly the same way. I'm definitely a weird guy and I feel all awkward in social situations. It also takes a lot for me to feel comfortable with others such that I can loosen up and talk with them without feeling like I have to put up a pretense, but it does happen. I know that if I wasn't married, I'd be having just as much trouble with women as I used to and as much as you say you're having. For what it's worth, you don't sound that odd judging by your writing. If you could talk like that in person, I'd think you were a regular guy. You're 20 years old. You have ample opportunity ahead of you to meet someone who you can be happy with and settle down with. It'll happen.
Start faking confidence in the little things then build up on it. get out more in social situations or where you feel uncomfortable and eventually the fear will pass..... practice on an ugly lass so you're not bothered if she says no.....ok i didn't mean that last sentence..... you sound nice anyway, not wierd or anything.
yep, I lived in that stage before...it's no big deal and will pass its just aiming your conciousness on your self and finding faults or whatever, ignore it' weird, good, go with it learn to accept yourself as perfect, see who you really are without flaw inside and the rest is nothing but ego talking away use your weirdness to youyr advantage it sounds like the only problem you have is that you think you have a problem...its a human thing really relax, be you, dont watch your own actions like a parent over you just be man peace
Man I would say those thoughts represent about the thoughts of 99% of people in your age group - you aint wierd but lay off the pot cuz seriously if you think youre wierd now, another year or two of that stuff and you will wish you were still only this wierd
yeah you sound a lot like me, i always tell myself You only have one life you might as well take some risks get rejected a few times and hopefull in the end itll all be good, also in like a month people forget anything embarressing you do so even if you ask out a girl then shit your pants in a month itll all be forgotten and i know that wont happen so dont worry.
okay the first two paragraphs.. i swear it sounds exactly my thoughts. Quite creepy. i would like to travel all over, but darn money has to get in the way. however the girl thing, it will come in time. No rush. =) hi.
