i need your help family

You can do it old goat. I ain't been drinking for awhiles now too. It's just something you decide, and you done decided. My thoughts and good vibes are with you brother.

 

Good luck brother... I doubt I've ever been exactly where you are so I don't want to say I can speak from experience, but let me say I have a really addictive personality... I've been a binge eater all my life, had various periods of too much drug and drink, and if there is one thing I have figured out, it's that you have to get to the point where YOU ACTUALLY DO NOT WANT TO DRINK/SMOKE/EAT/WHATEVER... as long as you WANT to drink but you are simply not doing it, you are fucked... but when you get to the point where you seriously do not care anymore, you think to yourself "I've been down that road before, and it leads nowhere good and gives me nothing special" and you really truly do not even want to drink because you are satisfied JUST TO BE ALIVE without that cheap, shallow sensual gratification of the booze... then you are on the right path... so find that passion, start that band or start writing that book or whatever it is that will make you feel good, and go with it full blast. Find God, find peace in your relationships... then you won't even give a crap about drinking because you will be so busy living and loving each moment of your life that you won't need that extra little bit of gluttony to be happy.

 

If you can get to the point where you never want to drink again, and it doesn't take you 20 years to get to that point, you may not have been an alcoholic. Speaking from experience, I would love to get drunk every weekend or maybe several times a week. In the absence of work and family relations and hangovers and money spent and health issues, it would be lovely. However, there comes a point when you do realize that it's not worth it. Cravings continue to happen and some of us just don't feel human without a couple beers in us, that takes a long time to go away. I am tempted all the time, but we know the price we'd pay if we went down that road. That's why we have each other, to remind us of what it was like when we didn't give a shit, and to let each other know that our addiction doesn't control us, we control it.

 

Good vibes and prayers coming your way

 

well good luck hippy .....i have gone a full 24 minits since i medicated myself .....im dreaming of worldwide general strikes andbloody revolutions in which millions of people of wealth n power and their sycophants are turned into alpo .

 

Raven I see your point and maybe you're right, but I think that through major spiritual transformations, major psychological reevaluations, etc. it is possible to actually lose the desire to self-medicate with one's vice of choice, and for someone as extreme as me a major change like that seems to be the only way to ensure lasting improvements.

 

trust me,, i have no desire to self medicate ever again.

i have put to many people thru to much hell because of it.
an the end result has cost me more than i ever thought it would.
no matter what,I WILL NEVER DRINK AGAIN!!!!

its been about 62 hours since the last drink i will ever take. im shaky, i have a headache from hell,heart palpitations,the shits,an im lucky if i sleep more than 2 hours a night.
but i deserve every bit of it,and it will always be a constant reminder of why i can never drink again.

oh an i found my"sobriety song."

lemme find it.

 

I'm gonna change my ways of 'doin things around here
I'm turning over a new leaf ,gonna get my self in gear
'Cause I've got a women whos better then most,
and I've made a mess of her plans
Starting today ,all I'm gonna be is her man

'Cause I've been a wild catter, and a go-go getter
Been an S.O.B. right down to the letter
I've had misadventures, I've even got pictures
I'm even more than I can stand
But startin` today, all I'm gonna be is her man

I'm gonna give it all back, cause all I've done is take
Well I've put her on the back burner while I was out on the make
But I've got a woman who's good enough to give me
A second chance again (please gimme another chance)
And startin` today, all I'm gonna be is her man

'Cause I've been a wild catter, and a go-go getter
Been an S.O.B. right down to the letter
I've had misadventures, I've even got pictures
I'm even more than I can stand
But startin` today, all I'm gonna be is her man

I'm a little bit late but I'm wisin` up
Now I'm takin` her by the hand
And startin` today, all I'm gonna be is her man

 

That's beautiful Love light an' laughter to you...

 

Keep on keepin on. You got some good motivation working for you. I'm proud of ya. Damn, once you're all sobered up and all you gotta come up to Canada so I can take a look at the new you. (Or the once was you?)

 

i lasated untill 4 this afternoon unmedicated . i exibited symtoms of a stark and horribly painfull nature , and was lucky enuff to medicate myself.......ood luck hippy , im surprised your feeling as good as you do . even to be able to type n shit .

 

If you are going to sober up, do it for yourself above all. You are strong enough. You are a man. No one else need to help carry the burden of that decision.

I support your descision. I think it's the right one. If I ever see you hanging around A-Camp someday...I'll be sure to remind you of this post.

Most importantly though (even though you kicked me off FeelFree...) I love you sober or not. Preferably sober though.

jon

 

Ah man, perfect song You're well on your way man! I'm sending good vibes your way

 

hey hillybilly, i was just signing on here on way to seek your wisdom,,

i am sittin here at home hearing the news talk about babylon, and more and more of the same ol crap. mystified and lieful

im a little bewildered ,
knowing damn well it's time for change, prayer, standing up and bringing into life what i know deserves to be manifested...


saw your post on my way to message ya, right when i signed on, and brother, allll my love and all my soul in the stars for you and with you during this time,

love and light my friend, eternally, and strength

 

how you feeling now brother?

 

im willing to bet hippies too sick to even sit at the puter and have a converstation.....hell , i may be in the same or a similar boat in a couple days .....

 

wrong,, i been doin fine.. 7th day. its done,, im from now on officially sober.
other than missin dilli,, im jing diggetty, shoulda done this long ago...

 

Hey hillybilly It's Tex........................ I just left there about 2 weeks ago and Brother I can say after all I've been through lately I have met some of the most beautiful people I have ever met in my life right there on the feel free farm... I left Texas in search of something that I still havent found yet but what I did find was People in this world who cared enough about there fellow man that they offered up there home to Me gave me a safe haven to stay, poking the hell out of Smot and being free to figure out what it was I was really searching for...... I can say that Milwaukees Best is another of the liquid killers that I've seen too many times kill families and destroy many beautiful things.... I pray for ya and wish you the best in this search and hope u find that one lady I know you truly Love...... But the one thing you have to realize bro is u cant do this for her u have to do it for yourself and u have to completeley understand why ur doing it... You have seen what it does and you have seen what you lose from this first hand and now is the time to decide is it worth it or is what you had more important..... You only have one chance to dance cause one day your legs wont bounce the same.................................. Love you brother TEX i cant remember my login to hip forums i think its Pot_Man but idk Peace Pot and a Microdot O and Ill see ya soon man Measa hasnt showed back up yet out at tonys so im headed back to texas to pick big dung lovers I hope that when i come back through there that you are still there cause i wanna go up to the cabin and see that lil woodstock foam man again................ Love Ya Always Bro http://www.collinsgeneralstore.net

 

hey brother its the pumkin man. me and tex are here at my moms in ohio. brother measa hasnt come back yet he was supposed to be back wendsday according to the message he left on the machine that was almost a week ago. but we all know thats how he is sometimes.



I know the pain you are going through both physicly and emotionaly. I have battled with alcholism all my adult life and i often loose the battle. It has cost me jobs, family, my presssure washing buisness, my home, friends, all my possesions and the list goes on like that untill i find myself halfway through another bottle. your over the first hurdle, a big one, but there are many more to go. The hurdles will get easier the longer you go but this is where they through in a hurdle that dosnt quite seem like a hurdle. its the hurdle of the false sense of security it sneeks up on you usualy around 90 days of sobriety or so has always been the case for me. Your doin great and some friends are over or whatever and ya think well one beer i mean what could it hurt right ive beat this thing... WRONG... Its always there every day no matter how good you think you are doing it lures you cause you have that one beer and quit and ya say see i did it. then next week end you prove it again. and so on and so on utill your right back where ya started. I know you are a strong person and can do this. but tex is right you have to do it for you.

well on to cheerier things. since staying on the farm i have been inspired to possible never live indoors again. we have 21 acres here and i've been in tent ever since i got back short of a few agonizing nights spent in town to take care of the aftermath of the demise of hippie house (may ir rest in peace)
Next month a friend and i are going to do small portion of the AT for a month for some practice. I have been doing some short hikes here as well. I want brother measa to come with us but as he is still M.I.A we will just hope he gets here before then. So i may see you again next march if you would be intrested in givin a hiker a ride to springer.

ill pm you with my number here at the house if ya need someone talk to i found just calling somebody for a few minutes helped me to get by the times i was just sittin aroud wantin a drink kinda takes your mind off it ya know.


all my love and support goes out to you brother and if ya can find it under all that hair keep your chin up.

lovin you

the pumkin man

 

i aint goin nowhere,..
an i am doin this for myself,, if theres one thing gettin sober has shown me,, its how blind alcohol can make you..

trust me,, i will never drink again,, not even a sip.

love n light