thoughts/insights

What kind of thoughts or insights do you usually have while your tripping? Basically, sum up a trip, but focus on your thought process instead of visuals and hallucinations.

 

my mushed up brain on droooogs:

oh......look at all the pretty things... HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHAT IS THAT wow that looks cool i wish i could play the piano HEY i know you guys!! you need a hug from me because im so fucking happy i just need to spread the mafucking loveee you wanna know something??? i can touch my tounge to my nose wanna see?

i just need to reeeeeeelaxxxx for a minute....

OK! im ready to go again lets do something i dotn want to sit still AHAHAHAAAA everything is sparkling and winking at me ....rainbowwwsss

I AM FUUUUUUCCCKED I AM SOOOOO FUCKING FUCKED I FEEEL A_FUCKING -MAZING!!

 

we are all trying to say the same thing...
we are just saying it differently

you dont need anything...
because all you need is LOVE

 

LSD: My thought process tends to be a little circular, or repetitive. I also seem to focus on the visuals more than people because it is usually hard to see faces through all the tracers. But I also do somethings I'm not even aware I'm doing. The other night I was calling out deja vu when ever I felt it. After talking to a friend the next day he told me I was doing it almost right after this one guy said anything stupid. But other than that I can still think logically. I normally don't freak out or get giddy.


Mushrooms: Confusing. I don't get any visuals on shrooms. So all I can do is focus my mind on anything and everything. And since mushrooms kind of cloud my mind I easily start confusing things. The extra time to sit and think makes me just walk around going "What the f*ck."

But no matter what hallucinogen I take I can catch anything thrown at me. Which is always entertaining.

 

What we do in this life, or try to achieve is just us showing our true feelings from in the mind. Like a code.

 

the externality of relations is an illusion

 

its not really whether its an illusion or not, its about what feels most true most real, most beautiful.

it can all be some sort of illusion

trust yourself
just feel

accept it all, OPEN YOUR MIND

these are just my opinions

reality is just an opinion

 

I do not deny appearances, only their "externality"

 

I think about art alot while on LSD. Underground hip-hop artist Dose 1 said "I am everywhere where art is." After enjoying the outside world while on my trips, i would go into deep thoughts of mapping out what experiences i discover about myself or through that of man. If I thought about it and i tripped off it like its was astounding or baffled, I'd express it in my sketchbook. A personal experience i had while walking home at about the 5th hour of my trip on 4 liquid drops. I was thinking about myself and how i always appeard to others. As I was looking down, I became fixated on my shadows that were being cast from about 8 different street lights. It dawnd on me that i have multiple personality traits within myself that make up who i am as a person. It stopped me in my tracks not far from home and i stood there for a few minutes in total amazement. Here is the definition of Insight-The capacity to discern the true nature of a situation; penetration. The act or outcome of grasping the inward or hidden nature of. I discovered the hidden nature of myself.

I also would people watch while tripping. It was one of my favorite past times. I would trip out on peoples energies they were emitting. I know most people have heard this alot, "You can truely see the soul of man through his own eyes". It is so true. Most of the time i avoided eye contact with people i am observing. I would get paranoid thinking they knew i was on something or if i was stalking them. But back to the subject, looking at someone you know what kind of person they may be. Body language speaks very loudly about themselves also. I live in Las Vegas, and going to the casions people watching you see everything from excitement to pure depression. I thought it was sad that there was more depressed souls then happy/excited ones. I never really thought about it till now because its something i didnt want myself to fall into. I quit people watching after that.

One acid experience i have had that was the scariest thing that could happen to anyone who is on LSD. The thought of being hurt very badly and even death. It was late at night and i took a full blotter square that had a picture of a smurf kicking a mushroom. I was at home very anxious and full of energy i decided to go on the hunt for some weed to smoke. I ran across 1 of my sister friends who had some and i asked him if he could smoke me out. He agreed, but i never let him know i was on acid. We jumped in his car and went to one of his spots where we could toke up. It was one of his friends and a room mate's apartment. We started to bullshit and he had mentioned that he was a pimp and had all sorts of chicks. He started to make phonecalls to set some of them up to come and kick it. He then told one of his friends not to tell Dana. I knew who he was talking about. She was fairly huge woman that was not sexually appealing at all. My dumb ass said outload, "Damn you be fucking with chicks like that? Ewwww." I was under the impression that this chick was like his steady GF/fuckbuddy of some sort. Ironcally Bordella of Blood was on television and i was trippin out on the movie and not paying attention to my surroundings. When like 20-30 seconds later this roomate dude comes out with his consrtuction hammer (16" in lenght /Heavy head) cocked back so far that his elbow was pointing straight up. This dude was after me! I TRIPPED THE FUCK OUT!! I didnt know why, i was stuck stupid like a deer in the headlights about to get crushed. I was damn lucky the guy i went over there with and the other roomate stopped him. They guy was drunk as fuck and face red with anger, but i had no clue why. All i had flashing thrugh my head was my life. How i died. Looking at it from an outsiders view, visualizing blood splatter, brain and bone fragments from my skull all over the wall. They told me then that Dana was his Fiance! He had every right to get mad like that, he was protecting the honor of his woman and i respect that. It was just plain shitty on my part because i didnt have any clue. I learned that night not not talk shit about anyone to anyone. I paid for what i said, physically un-hurt. Mentally, destroyed. I couldnt shake the thought the rest of the night as i watched cartoons safely at home. I was almost killed. This inccedent i will never forget.

Summing everything up in my experience and insights of some of my LSD trips. 1 strong revelation that involves all mankind i have realized. "The death of Man is due to his own devices" My first story tells this quote by realizing who you are personally may cause you to harm yourself or others. My second story depicts peoples state of minds and soul that bare sorrow, regret, lonliness, hatred can harm themselves or others. The third story, which i hope has been a shocking one says that you shouldn't open your big fucking mouth around people you dont know because they could potentially harm you.

Ill still drop Acid even though i have experienced life as shitty as it may be. One thing remains in me though. I love life and would hope to live it to the furthest extent that i could.

 

Be positive.