Are you aware when there's a conflcit within yourslef? How do you work against your own good? Is it intentionally wanting to make yourself miserable or simply a conflict between two opposite desires? Do you preffer the instant pleasure you get from doing a damaging thing that the rewards from abstenance?
Yeah man you nailed me. I totaly need more friends but deep down I understand no one will be my friend until my hygeine is kept up.
You'll find the right time dude,,,for me is about inspection day once a year. I love it, once I do it.
i'm very good at doing harm to myself i abuse my mind with thoughts and images and obsessions i dont really like... just like torture...
