what do you least like.........

I'm the child of an alcoholic, so I have all of the problems that come along with that, the one that bothers me most is my need to be liked. Considering some of the stuff I post, you wouldn't think that to be the case, but I'm hyperconcious of saying or doing anything which might give people a bad impression of me.

But then sometimes when I'm depressed I turn around and do things like posting these long, rambling rants which reveal far more about myself than I probably should - thus negating all my careful attempts at keeping people from knowing what a dork I can be. I think to see if people will still accept me, "warts and all." I always end up regretting it later.

It's a whole endless cycle: Try to impress people, then tear myself down. Over and over. It sucks, really.

 

personality wise: i'm am extremely unmotivated.


physically: damn near everything.

 

I can't tell people to fuck off when I really should. I flirt with women I have no interested in, not even for sex. I'm an elitist bastard, and I enjoy it.

 

My lack of confidence.

My sometimes extreme shyness.

How I get anxious over the smallest things.

 

backtothelab-aren't you the one who did the self inflicted surgery? if so, how's it going?

edit: nevermind, i don't think it was you. excuse me for being a tardass.

 

I hate how I'm so emotionally unstable, how I complain too much, I'm weak willed, I'm too passive some days and too aggressive others. I have temper problems, I'm a borderline alchoholic, I have very little short term memory, can't land/keep a girlfriend for whatever reason(I probably just listed them all actually), I have major anxiety problems, I have a dependency issues AND antisocial issues(how cruel is that?), and as bad as all of that makes me feel, I'm too stubborn to take the medication that's being offered to me.

 

Mentally:
Being incredibly shy around women
Very unmotivated
I have a "just dont care" attitude, and it sometimes gets me in trouble.

Physically:
Everything, I hate my body. I'm too skinny in general, with too much fat in certain sections. My arms arent big enough, I'm short. I hate my hair and my nose.

 

im not mucho use to civilised society. or biological life for that matter

 

i thought about physical ones because im in a self hating mood

my hair is annoying damaged
my nose is too big
i weight 135 too big for me!!!
i have a big butt, and small boobs Bcup large ass
i have a tummy pooch from having two kids
i have huge legs that look funny with my small upper body
my lips are too thin... there

im pmsing obviously:$

 

I spend too much money




hookers are expensive these days

 

my pouch...it sucks!

 

I least like the fact that I distance everyone I care about because I'm scared that if I care too much about them they'll go away, which is stupid logic if you ask me, but I can't seem to do anything about this.

 

Forgive my stupidness, but whats a pouch?

 

"What do you least like about yerself?"

My penis is incredibly small...

 

My insomnia! It keeps me here in frontof the computer when i should be sleeping.

 

whatever it is that chases all the girls away.

 

I least like that I have a really bad temper when I get going and I say mean things to the people I love...:&

 

I don't like that I get depressed and anxious and sometimes take that out on others.

 

well i don't like very well being stuck in a human body
nor the coerciveness of human society

but i don't think that has much to do with anything about my real self

other then that; what's not to love?

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