I think i have some problems with my personality, first of all; the last year i have been overly promiscuous which is easy when you are travelling like i am.... but now i have met & fallen in love with somebody & 90% of the time i am happy do whatever (even if its nothing) as long as i am with him...i am just so happy to be in his company but occaisionally i have outburts of extreme frustration where is say really mean things & get overly emotional.... its really hard for me to bite my tounge when im upset, i am so scared i am going to ruin this perfect chemistry that we have...... maybe i am bipolar or something i dont know why i do this....guys have told me i am different to other girls cos i am not so fussy or hard to please....but then when i am upset its like i just want to throw everything away & runaway.....i think i am scared of love because i dont feel that i have the patience to make it work... how do i stop myself from being a bitch to this guy when i am having one of my psycho outbursts....i just feel like a terrible person
Well, feeling like such a horrible person is not at all standard or laudable. Why do you feel that way? Try to think of the first time you felt that way...did anyone tell you were a horrible person? Did you internalize that? Also, when you're simply going along with guys, is there some frustration simmering beneath the surface and you don't feel like you're allowed to bring it to the surface?
yes fexurbis, i think i have alot of frustration simmering benieth the surface, normaly it only surfaces with people i really care about hence damaging the relationship.....
I can get like that too when I'm stressed out. Try not to see him so often so you can relax and vent frustrations elsewhere. You may be bipolar and if its really a possibility go see a doc... If he loves you, then he'll learn to deal with your ups and downs.
so your worried about being a bitch whens he's being a bitch? Worrieing about falling in love and is irrelevent at this point. commming to terms with that and understanding the implications of it will put you in a position to be more tolerent dont be fooled by the man, if you where bipolar you would know it, it would be like you where prego all the time. the truth is peopel get mad sometimes. they deal with it and that makes them wise up and grow as a person. Dont deny yourself this oppertunity by taking nonrecreational drugs
