Best ways of commiting suicide?

Well, forget about my girlfriend would be the hardest thing that i would have to do because i love her so much and she is one of the few people that i can count on. I guess that you are right but forgeting about her would be so painful.

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Am I going crazy? my mind is playing games with me

 

No, you're not going crazy. Everyone gets depressed, some more than others. It's fairly common. Don't worry, you're not going insane.

 

the fact of the matter is,
there is no "good" way to kill yourself. the only way i could EVER kill myself is saving a life, that my friend is a noble way to go out but, killing yourself over mental anguish is not the way to die. live a good life and when your time comes...it will come. no need to rush things. i lost a good friend once and he was SOOOO young. i was thinking to myself, he never even began to live. but thats not the truth. the truth was, he lived more in his 18 years of life than i have in my 24. so trust me my friend, its not your time. life is fucking fragile. live it to the fullest.

 

There are lots and lots of different medications to try. It does not mean you are weak. In fact I am learning the opposite. Whatever Doctor you see tell them you want to start out at the lowest dose possible, even lower than that. You might have a chemical imbalance. That has nothing to do with being weak. Your brain might be lacking something that the meds can get back on track. Once it is and you have learned how to deal with things a lil' easier than you can always get off the meds, doctor's permission advised. The meds are not the only answer. The other answer is therapy. Finding solutions that work best for you to get you through what ails you. You have tons of choices. I never realized how many I had until I was able to start seeing things through healthier eyes. I have a situation I just worked through that was really hard for me. Had I not of had the therapy and support that I have had I would never of been able to breath from it.

The situation with you Lil' Lady. Funny you mention how much you think of this person. She sounds like a beautiful Lady. Have you ever heard opposits attract? My Mr. Nut is a genius. He is so smart and so intellegent. He can do almost anything. Me? Well I never went to college. I have learned a lot of my skills from him. BUT even though he is the smart one out of the two of us I am the loving, emotional one. I keep him balanced in areas he had not been intuned with. He is a great Daddy to our boys. He gives them tons of love. He is considerate. I could go on and on about him. When we dated I couldn't say such beautiful things about his emotional side. He was very inside himself. We work together, beautifully. I tell you all this because you and your Lady could be the perfect balance for each other.

I know it may seem hard for you to really HEAR what your Lady is saying. Sounds like you might have your mind made up before she even speaks. If she loves you, really loves you ask her to help you with seeking help. Tell her you really need her to be there with you and for you on this one. If she loves you she will grab your hand and lead you to the nearest doctor or phone.

What is something else that really bothers you that you want to talk about?

ps. I think these people here who are offering you help, phone numbers, and a sounding board are really great people. You have a sweetie offering you a helpline. Don't let that pass you by.

 

i have something to say too which may sound a little weird at first but hear me out.... everyone is telling you that obviously you have something to offer because this girl is with you... well... sure.. that may very well be true but the truth is you have something to offer regardless of who this girl is or what she does. even if she were to leave you or something... which does not sound at all like that is gonna happen just that you were worried.. you would STILL be worth more than suicide. you have YOU to offer. noone else in the world now, in the past or in the future can ever ever ever be you.... and whether you believe it or not you are worth very much to people. even if you took all precautions, your family WOULD hurt and they would hurt like hell if you ever killed yourself. they would hurt like hell if you died but if you took their own life do you know what usually happens? people start to wonder if they are to blame.. all of the pain you feel now would be multiplied by a hundred on the people you left behind. they do care about you even if they do not show it very well... i do not even know you and seeing your first post made my heart race i was scared and it really hurt me that someone considered taking their own life. even though i dont know you even i care about you..an act like that would hurt more people than you know.. it is the kind of thing that hurts all of humankind. why? because that is giving up on hope and everyone has struggles and all of us need to know there is hope.. you know what? there is... i have been there myself.. i have been at alltime lows where i seriously was very close to doing it... i was alone... i did not talk to anyone and i came close but always my thumping heart told me not that i was scared of death but that i knew it was a very wrong thing and scared of what it would do to those around me... you know what happened? i made the right decision not to... my life has changed so much in such a way i would have never imagined and i am so thankful that i did not give up. but do not measure your own worth by how others treat you ... your worth lies within you.... even if you think it is not much .. it is a TREMENDOUS amount. you have the potential to recognise this worth and live with a more positive attitude toward yourself.pain hurts but it is only pain. stronger than pain is hope and love and the values that you learn to build in your life .... you can turn your life in any direction you choose. it would be such a change to throw this opprotunity away by giving up. everyone understands pain.. maybe not your pain.. but everyone has their own kind.... and understands what it is like to hurt. but struggling on despite this pain is the most glorious part of life. people do care... but more important than that is that you learn to love and care about yourself. life is always changing and always throwing new obstacles at us... new pains.... sometimes it seems so much you feel like you cannot take it. but you can and that is the beauty of it... you can and then along comes a moment where you are thankful . life is also throwing new joys at us.. the hard part here is its so much easier to focus on the pain and ignore the potential joys... you are too good for that. look for the joy in your life and find the love all around you and inside you.. no matter what happens... everyone seems to always be wondering what the purpose in life is.. well to me this is one of the most important purposes we have.. to find our love and to conquer our fears, pain, hate , and to move on... hope and perseverance. you ARE special..not to sound corny but you are. simple as that. you are a human being. not a peice of worthless junk better off to be discarded. do not look for your worth in others. your worth is in you and it is tremendous. you just have to allow yourself to know that. . . i dont think you necessarily need it... but if you feel you do, find yourself a good councelor and let someone help you. there is nothing wrong with asking for help. any time you feel you cant take it... just hold on a little longer til you can get some help from someone.. but just remember that you can help yourself too by just starting to love and appreciate yourself a little more. even if you seem to think you have no good reasons too.... love isnt about reason. anyway, if you ever want to pm me you are very welcome to do so. i would be grateful to you for choosing that option as opposed to the tragedy you mentioned before.

 

Well thank you, i never thought people could be so nice and helpfull about my problem. God Bless you.


There is a really big gap in my mind, this makes my thought go into a really big mess which i cant really handle. 4 some reason i cant really trust people n i think that everyone wants to harm me but ill try to find help and i wont give up because its not nice to be living like this.


Thank you so much and god bless every single one of you.

 

can i just have a moment here to stand at the podium and scream "BEING A TEENAGER FUCKING SUCKS ASS!!" thanks. the farther i get from beinga teenager, and the farther i get from my family, the better my life gets. i'm happier, healthier, i get better lookin' every day. i barely scraped by my teenage years. though i would say killing someone else was usually the more tempting option. i'm really glad i didn't go all columbine.


you may now return to your regularly scheduled counseling session. good luck.

 

i'm serious, man. good luck. for what it's worth you're in my prayers.

 

I really mean it, thank you all for making me understand that life is good (not in my case) and that i should resolve my problems soon.


thanks a lot

 

The sooner you contact a professional about this the better. Don't wait too long. I've found that me resolve slips if I give my mind a chance to slip back into the dark. Now you can see some light (I hope), don't let it out of your sight.

 

Know1, I really like your monkey pic - did you do that?

Sorry to have interrupted the soap here.

 

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theusualone17, I was going to pm you, but just in case there are others out there with similar feelings, I'll throw it all up here. As you can tell, lots of us have had the same feelings that you've been experiencing. It's very heartening to see your reactions to many of the good people that commented here, and I sincerely hope you carry through with getting some help and pulling yourself out of this depression. Once upon a time, I too was at that suicidal stage, and lucky for me, some really good friends saw the signs and got me some help. It took no less than two weeks of therapy and the proper medication before everything turned around. I'll tell you, that kind of change is near miraculous when it happens, and I wish you the best of luck in discovering it. Please don't be afraid to contact a help line or a therapist, there are good ones out there that really can help sort things out. If you have any questions or want to talk, feel free to PM me anytime... best wishes to you, my friend.