I am looking for perversions, insecurities, phobias, funny habits, fantasies, fetishes, irrational thoughts and desires, etc. Could be anything from an addiction to popping bubble-wrap to a sexual fetish to a sudden desire to eat someone's eye balls. But it better be at least relatively embarassing...:leaving: I'll initiate by saying that I often fantasize about fucking people I'm mad at or whom I've been embarassed in front of. It is usually from behind, and very rough. This does not have to be someone I'm attracted to at all. I've had many such fantasies with college professors I owed papers to.
For some reason I just can't seem to get it on with hot over educated, over-sexed, americas next top model wannabee's (as pictured above) Hotwater
i tend to be drawn towards men who push me away, or even get angry at me for feeling affection. likewise, i tend to have very high standards when men show interest in me, and am prone to turn down men for having dysfunctional behavior patterns, which may seem hypocritical, but i'm aware of my own dysfunction and don't wish to exacerbate it. i like break-up songs and have a tendency to want to run away. i occaisional bouts of anxiety, frequesntly self-sabotage and have a hard time trusting the process of life. just plain quirks: i walk most places barefoot and kick my sandals off as soon as i leave a store or some other place where shoes are required. i tend to pick up squahed rusty bottlecaps, washers, found papers, and other strange objects off of the street and turn them into art, which embarrasses my son (until he spots something he thinks he can use for his own sculpture.) i don't watch tv or shop at malls, supermarkets, or big-box stores, frequently even if it means going without something myself. i have a nice guitar i really want to learn to play, but it scares me a bit because i've got myself convinced i can never really understand music due to hearing/audio processing problems.
oh lord...the list is super duper long. so we will just say I am a human that has been affected by my parentage as well as environmental factors and I am doing my best to reprogram myself the way I feel I should be....
well lol....thats just the silly word... I have no problem with the idiosyncrasies in me personality. I am just aware that some of my stuff isn't very good for those around me...like my anger issue problems...so for me I should be able to handle me emotions But I gotcha...I was actually a bit reluctant to post it for that reason but I am glad it was you who called me on it.
I'm completely obsessed with the Beatles. Aaaand...um I've terribly afraid of bugs. Especially flying ones and spiders.
I can get really jealous, I hold grudges. I'm fat and sometimes I fanatsize about being skinny and knowing karate. I'm a work aholic. I eat all the time. Especially, PIZZA!!!!
