Seen the Light at the end of the Tunnel?

Anyone had a total ego death,nirvana type experience-tunels,big fuck off light,total fucking ecstasy,god even?

 

Yea, on saturday this weekend at 5 am, I took LSD and mushrooms and sat lotus style in meditation watching the sun rise over the Philadelphia skyline for about 2 hours. Amazing!

 

indeed..

 

Yup.. and I had a fucking awesome flashback of it Saturday night during a nitrous trip, while on ecstasy.

It was one of those things where like, during the trip it was so vivid and all-encompassing, but after the trip it became a vague memory, lost in the corners of my mind. I couldn't quite describe it when I tried to recall my trip to others, but last Saturday it made itself clear to me again.

It wasn't exactly God, or a light at the end of a tunnel.. but during the original acid trip, it was my world - no - my universe. Just this image was temporarily all I knew - all I could percieve. In the trip itself there was much more to it, but in the flashback I just got a still image, and I can remember it vividly now. It was a a grid of cubes. Red and white checkered surfaces, and in the middle of one of the white surfaces was a red monkey, but it was like an icon of a monkey, rather than a detailed image. Man.. that monkey was insane in the original trip

I'm beginning to enjoy nitrous more and more these days, each is like a full blown acid flashback for me now, with visuals, audio and everything. I might be encouraged to take acid again if it continues to be so enjoyable (my earlier flashbacks were sometimes scary and usually unwelcome, but these recent ones, induced mostly through MDMA and nitrous, have been great fun)

 

Not personally, but I've been tripping when one of my friends has. We were walking down this trail by his apt. that leads into a wooded area, and right as we reached the point where the woods met the outside, he just starts freaking out. He starts asking us who he is, where we are, what we are doing, etc. He's basically crying because he's so scared and has no idea what is happening. It was interesting. He never did describe what happened very well, other than saying he just had an extreme ego death.

 

I have almost gone there several times from LSD, magic mushrooms and salvia. Salvia divinorum was a very spiritual experience for me. It taught me about life, its pleasures and its hardships... Oh how I love tripping...