OK, so let me set the stage for the dream I am about to share... About 2 months ago I trusted a woman to petsit my Amazon Parrot and my Greenwing Macaw. About 3 days into the petsitting she begged me to take back the macaw as she was affraid of him. At the end of the week when I went for the Amazon she refused. I called the police, and in turn she called animal control and told them I was abusing my beloved parrots and doggies. So long story short, she basically threatened my whole existance, stole my bird, and drove me to move a good 3 hours away from her. So here is the "character key" for the dream... Evil Petsitter: Shannon Evil Petsitters Military Macaw: Rio My Macaw: Bud (big supprise huh!) My Amazon: Chico My best friend new Meyer Parrot: Bebe My Fiance': David Here is the dream and keep in mind I've been "practicing" lucid dreaming. Shannon comes over to my new house and demands to see my birds. We are out on the porch and she is yell-lecturing me about what an unfit parent I am to my birds, and that she is well aware a druggy is in no place to care for a living creature. She bursts in the door, and while we were on the porch Bud had escaped from his cage and brutally killed ALL my small birds & my best friends bird (who I must have been petsitting for in my dream). The catch is that in my dream Bud took the form of Shannon's bird Rio. I start screaming, and I can literally feel the aweful clench of pain and anxiety in my stomach as I'm running around screaming. I grab David and start yelling "FIX THIS! FIX THIS" and he is just saying he is sorry, and it will be ok. So I look at him and say "yes, this is just a dream, I will wake up and all my birds will be in their cages and safe" he looks right in my eyes and says "no honey, I'm sorry but this is reality" and the last thing I remember before waking up is holding Bebe in my hands crying and saying "Why isn't this a dream, I thought this was just a dream" Explain that!
WOW.... thats seriously intense. My deepest apologies for what has happened to you, you seem a good person and unfortunatly thats the way the world seems to treat good people sometimes. I'm not very good at this but i'll give it a shot seeing as noone has posted on this yet. First, your mind can be a seriously real place when your lucid dreaming, why I have no clue but mine usualy are too real. Now for the hard part... From what I gather you have a large resentment towards this woman. Now I realise that may be an understatement but go with me on this one. You might have put this into the back of your mind after two months. IT seems that you still have a fear of loosing your birds and dogs, and might be a coincident or not but Bud killing the birds seems to be relevant. Might be that your afraid that you'll lose them because of the plant. I still do not understand why your huby would tell you what he did but i'm going to try to talk to some friends and see what they think. Again, i'm not usualy good at this kind of thing but its what i got when i read it.
it IS possible, even very easy, to improperly care for other creatures without intending to be negligent. it is very possible to feel sensitive, perhapse overly so, perhapse not, about people doing so. this is probably one of the biggest reasons there are laws restricting the keeping of other then the most common sorts of pet species. empaired judgement is empaired judgement. by deffinician it is not possible to have clear perception of one's own behaviour and actions under such conditions. it doesn't neccessarily of course, make everyone who does so, a negligent keeper of creatures. common or uncommon. it is possible this person sees something in specificly that you do not. it is also equally possible, as you seem to be suggesting, that they are simply prejudice against anyone recreationaly consuming neurotropic substances. so i'm not about to get into judging either of you, neither of whome i know personaly. just that these ARE ALL things that might be worth considering. it IS the nature of the subconscous mind, in dreaming, to consider what the conscous mind awake, neglects or refuses to. =^^= .../\...
