I saw my ex boyfriend from Germany after two years apart...

So I saw my exboyfriend after 2 years of us barely being in contact except for short emails, and it was not awkward or strange at all, like I thought it would be. It was acutally really nice. On my way to pick him up, I was sooo nervous, but the moment I saw him waiting for me on the platform, I realized there wasnt anything to be frightened or nervous about, and that it was just the good old Phillip I knew.

We went out for dinner, and smoked hookah later for a couple hours until past midnight, and we talked a lot. He told me he was shocked how mature and much older I seem since we last were together, in a good way. I told him I realized he seemed more positive and full of energy.

The second day, I took him on a little tour of Berlin, but the whole time I was thinking "We need to talk." We had never talked on the phone or in person at all about our relationship from two years ago, the last we ever mentioned about that was in the letter he sent me two years ago after he left, and it felt like we were both acting yesterday as if our relationship in America never happened, and that bothered me. We went to the park and ate dinner and sat by a drum circle, and I said finally "We gotta talk." It was a really good talk, and by the end of it, I realized finally that it was time to just fully let go, because while I was already over him, I feel like I kind of just hid away my memories of the relationship and focused on the fact that he lived so far away in order to get over him, instead of accepting the reality that we arent for eachother. I hadta cry when we were talking though, but he was very kind about it and put his arm around me and kept on apologizing...

I felt better tho afterwards, I felt like I held that sadness away from him and inside for so long.

And it wasnt even awkward afterwards, it was fine. I was still a bit upset of course, but it was fine. We smoked hookah again, this time with a freind of mine named Jill, who told us funny stories the whole time and cheered us both up and got our minds off of it all, and it wound up being a really nice last night of him being here.

Im so glad he came and that we the talk we had, because otherwise, I dont think I would have ever had "closure" or been sure about the whole situation.

Attached is a picture of us at the hookah bar, with him in the green tiedye shirt, and me with the long hair, exhaling the smoke from the hookah.

 

Perfect! Good job. Like much of life, our fears are usually much worse than the reality we face.

 

That's great I'm really glad that things went well and that you two are friends still. Hehe, they call those Hookah things "Hubblies" here. Maybe it's something different, but it looks the same.

 

^thanks guys.
Hubblies? whaaaaa? Well, Im sure its the same thing. A hookah is a water pipe, looks kind of like a bong, but instead has a tube with a mouthpiece on the end (which you see me holding in the picture) to suck the smoke from, and you smoke flavored tobacco. Where do you live, that they call is Hubblies???
Here in Germany, and most of Europe, they call it "Shisha"

 

Yeah we're talking about the same thing. Hubbly Bubblies. I'm currently living in South Africa. Have yet to try a hubbly, but they seem pretty fun. Supposedly, they're not bad for you in any way, but I have my doubts...

 

Thats always nice

 

Thats good for you I'm glad that you have closure I have a couple realtionships in my past in which I never really got closure now I think that I will find a way to get some sort of closure and stop not talking to them because of fear or anything like that my last bf in particular he and were together almost a year on and off. He is a commitment phobic although we both really loved each other we both have a lot of problems. We will always love each other but we really aren't made for each other. And anyway today I met a girl and I can't stop thinking about her....... Anyway good luck with your future and hope that you and him can stay friends. Closure usally helps with that.

 

that is fantastic. I'm glad you were able to get closure and was able to get everything that you were holding in out in the open.

peace,
bob