Grrrrrrrrrr.

has nothing really to do with weed, just with my current situation, and thought id vent here since i post on this forum a lot.

as you might/might not know, im on an exhcange trip living in Berlin for a year. everything is amazing, fun, crazy, exciting, nice, the city is spectacularf, the people are freindly, tehres lots to do, lots of weed to get, school isnt that bad either....but my host family that Im living with has been on and off a problem the whole year.

quick summary of the things i dont like about them/their living sitaution:
-i cant have a down to earth conversation, i feel like we're always talking to eachother for hte first time, as if we've just met, and ive never had this problem with people before
-my host sister has been quite simply an asshole to me the entire year. shes 18, so a couple months older than me, but these months seem to be years for her, cuz she likes to pretend how much older she is. okay, the typical sibling sitauton, but I never thought an 18 year old would still be playing that game! she pretty much hates me, and i get the vibe that shed like me to leave asap.
-theres no walls in my host familys apartment. my bedroom is a corner. ive learnt that even tho I thoguht i was so open and felxible, tghat no matter what, i NEED privacy sometimes, and without any walls, thats impossible. they can look into your room from the living room, kitchen, from the comptuer room from my sisters room: pretty much you can see everything all the time. it drives me crazy!
-ive lost a lot of weight. and ive always been really skinny already. my host family eats very very very very very very little. usually its bread for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, every day. sometimes theres only gross old bread and old cheese that reeeeeeeeeks to eat. my mom saw recents pictures of me and was shocked at how she could tell that id lost weight.

my host sister does things like, leaving my hair on a plate on my desk in my room if she finds my hair in the drain in the shower. shes done that twice. each time she takes "my" (it could very well be hers!) hair from the drain and puts it on a plate, with a post-it note next to it saying: "i thought i told you to clean!" but she never SAYS anything to me. she always does it stupidly like that, by leaving a post it note! but dirter hair on a palte on my desk??? thats not okay!
im also not allowed to listen to my music when others are home because they dont liek it, and since theres no walls, tehy can hear everything.also cant play too much non-clasicall music on the piano cuz otherwise that annoys my host mother.
if my host sister is home, and shes on the comptuer watching a dvd for example, that means:
1.) i cant use the comptuer, which is oaky
2.) i haveta be quiet, which emans
3.) i cant play the piano
4.) and also cant listen to music.
what i CAN do is eat, read, or paint. which is cool, but it sucks having that limit for 10 months straight!

ive lived with this for 10 months. i finally flipped out at my host parents and told them that their food has sucked for hte past year, because it really has, anyone whos beent o my house here and has seen what they have to eat is SHOCKED. apparently taht offended my host mother, and now i have no idea what to do.

im tired of trying and trying to make things work out with them. these are my last 5 weeks living in berlin, and im DONE now with trying to please them and keep on working: ive been working my ass off these past 11 months in germany, trying to learn a language i couldnt speak a word of upon arrival, which im now fluent in, and trying to get used to the "norms", cultural shock, trying to feel grounded in a new environment, making friends thru another language, i could go on. what i mean is, this year has been really hard, even tho its been amazingly fun, but now i am done wiht trying to "anpassen" (conform) and please them.

i want to go live with my german friends from school for my last 5 weeks. what do you think???i just dont know if i can stand this for my last 5 weeks, i want to enjoy this time and see my freinds and have a good closure to it, not feeling unwelcome and negative in the presence of my host fmaily 24/7.

on the other hand, ive managed it for 11 months, so i could surely put up with it for 5 more measly weeks...

 

would you get in trouble if you went to live with someone else?
im not really exactly sure of your situation..how did you get into this exchange program?

 

In your situation, I would move in with the friends if the consequences of moving away from your host family were not too severe.

Additionally, no matter what your decision, I believe you will be able to look back at this portion of your life and ask yourself .....




































"How the hell did I get into THAT mess?"

 

im with an exhange trip organization: i talked ot my volunteer/counselor from the organization ands he said she wasnt sure if it was a good idea if i switched only 5 weeks before going, unless i find a freind in school i could live with.
i think the questoin ill ask mroe is not "how did i get into that mess?" but rahter

"how the FUCK did I put up with that shit for a year?????"

 

^i got into this program by winning a scholarship from the us congress.

 

Sounds like any other family type problems. lol.

All I can say to you is....stick it out. You only have a few more weeks to freedom....and by freedom I mean turning 18. Free to do whatever you want (legally or secretly), free to live however you want, free to listen to whomever you want (walk off, or tune them out if you don't like the conversation), free to do basically anything and everything. Well...that, and leaving that host home.

How sucky of a situation for you though. Keep your composeur, it's almost over. And if you can't learn to deal with these people, good luck with the rest of society you'll deal with for the rest of your life. Some of the people I have dealt with have been no picnic either, but you learn to handle them. lol.

 

pfft. That is pretty shit.
Your host sister sounds like a bitch, i think you should gradually start being more and more unclean in your last few weeks. Clip your nails and leave them on the floor, leave hair, lots of hair in her bed.
Buy a pizza for yourself and while they're eating bread and cheese sit there and eat that.
But most most importantaly, and i know they've put themselves out looking after you etc.
You gotta make sure to blaze the fuck out of their house on your last day xD

 

haha^that shall i do.
ive thought about shitting in her pillowcase, shoes, or in hte drain where my hair usually is.
someone else told me to cum in her shampoo.
which ive thoguht about.
i almost did it once.
but then i thought about the image of her coming out of the shower all "clean and fresh" and smiling and sighing saying "aaaah so fresh" and then me secretly knowing that my cum was in her hair.
and it was too much.
so i didnt do that.
haha

 

That's no way to start off at life being an adult. He's turning 18 not 5. lol.

Why drop to that level of immaturity and shame?



*please forgive/ignore my pmsing ass. Must..have..more..chocolate!* :spliff:

 

Because sometimes, immaturity is a dish served ice cold...and in revenge form.

 

thats pretty shitty man.. i wouldn't even be able to put up w/ that shit for as long as you did!! so i give props to you..

but if i was you i would probably just leave and live with a friend until the 5 weeks are up.. that would be so much better

 

haha im considering it....

 

Man get out of there fast. If you can't stay at a friends get a cheap hotel.

 

why do you even stay home? If I were you I'd go outside everysingle day and only come home to sleep.

 

If they are purposly trying to make your stay uncomfortable, then talk to them about what you have told us. If you are uncomfortable because of the way they live with, or without, you around, then you will have to suck it up. I wouldn't expect them to make drastic changes to accompany you, who came over to see how it was like living in Germany.

The living situation (no walls) is not comfortable, and uneasy, I'm sure, but that's not their fault. That is how they live. If they are feeding YOU shitty bread and cheese then you have the right to complain, but if they are feeding you their dinner, then be thankful.

I don't mean to burst your bubble, i know it's fun to vent when you're frustrated. I think you may just not like living in Germany, or living the way this particular family lives their lives 24/7. I'm sorry to hear that your stay wasn't what you excpected. I just think you may be mad at your host family because you don't like the way that they live their lives.

If you host sister IS truely a bitch, however, the cum in the shampoo is brilliant. It's a victimless crime, that will last long after you're gone. I'm not condoning the act, I just think it's funny as shit.

Good luck living with your next 5 weeks in Germany, and I hope you can determine if it is their fault you're not enjoying the stay.

 

I'd say get out of there if you can. It sounds awful. Why put up with shit for 5 more weeks if you don't have to. I think if it were a situation/family with which you could talk things thru, you guys would have sorted things out much earlier. I went on an exchange program in which one was in a bad situation. There's no reason to put up with a lousy situation if you don't have to.

good luck. Shitty living situation *really suck*.

 

exactly! if i had a family like that i would NEVER be home unless i HAD to

 

Nah dude, YOU MUST shit in her pillow case thats the funniest shit I've heard in awhile.

 

^hahahaha ew!

 

jimaug:
I never said I wasnt enjoying my excahnge trip in normal. and its not that I dont enjoy the german way of living: on the contrary, i love it! but my host fmaily does not live hte "typical german lifestyle". eating no food is not a typical german thing.
its hard to be thankful for food when I feel like they dont give a shit whetehr i have something to eat or not. and also when I hear from every other gemran I know that my host parents eat ridiculously.

the lifestyle doenst have to do with it: its the attitude of the host family but most paritcularly my host sister who make the stay uncofmrotable. its especially more awkward when theres no walls: its so awkward sitting in my "corner" (not room, theres no walls) and her sitting a couple feet away, and us not talking at all because she hates me.

so, the change i was asking of them was to FEED ME. plain and simple. ive lost a lot of weight, and its worried people. i dont like complaining and being unthankful, but I think I deserve a right to be unhappy if im not being fed and feel malnourished.