need to get this off chest somehow

i did something stupid today that i will probably never forget for the rest of my life and its making me feel sick, i was stupid enough to place a add on craigslist. The person that answerd the add did not say specifics and so we met at my place. It turned out he was like a 40+ guy and im not a open bi and have never had a real experince and this was definatly not the guy i would want to have one with, he got naked and laid on my bed, i did not let him tuch my privates but he stroked my leg. But just the fact that i went even this far and seeing him naked has scared my mind and i feel violated in more then one way. i dont know what to do because i cant share this with anyone i know. I already thru away the blanket he laid on and took a shower 5 times and i still feel dirty. i have never felt like this before i feel like im going to puke.

 

what do you think made you feel so violated?
by the way I'm moving this to another gay subforum, where I think it would be better suited
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im not really sure why it made me feel so violated, it could have been having such a old man looking at me wanting to do things to me, im not sure but i know for sure that i did not feel right, i got him out of the house fast, but it left me feeling really bad

 

a lot of people wouldn't describe 40+ as old
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fine fine, a middle age man

 

have a think about why you felt this way, then the feelings should start to go, is it because you haven't totally faced being bi, is it because you haven't done anything like this before, is it because you consider him old, would it be the same if it had been a middle aged woman?
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your right thanks for the advice i started to think about it some though i did not want to, i think it was parcialy i felt guilty for some reason doing what i did, just meeting a random person on the internet with the intensions of possibly doing something that should be shared between 2 people that connect with eachother, also i think it was beeing in the presense of another naked male, I have always found myself attracted to both sex's but once i was next to one in person my views changed, i think it also could have been because of his age, and it could have possibly gone diffrent if he was younger, but mostly i think its because i regret having these feelings to begine with and acting apon them makes me feel like a terrible person ( i was raised in a very very strong christan family) so doing things like this wether it be with a guy or a girl is very bad or atleast that is how i was raised. I feel a lil better now just thinking about it. thanks for the advice i dont feel violated anymore just resentfull of my own actions

 

Are you familier with the safety rules when meeting a person off the net?
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no not really

 

This thread has reminded me that I intended to do that, I will post them up tomorrow
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heres those safety lists
http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=238935

 

Eww. Who wouldnt that creep out?! You should have left the moment you saw him!