I've been wickedly depressed lately. I don't want to get up out of bed, once I'm up I feel like it takes everything in me to just do the simplest of everyday tasks. I haven't felt like this in ages, and I hate the fact that all of a sudden I'm back to feeling like I have no hope in life at all. Honestly, if I could I'd just stay inside and not talk to a soul. I've been quick to burst into tears at the slightest thing, but then I also feel so sped up mentally at times. I can't stop talking for instance about the stupidest things. Anyway, I just needed to get all that off my chest. I have been diagnosed bipolar, but I haven't felt so down in so long. I'm been basically coping and managing and getting on with life; but damn recently it's like someone's deflated me.
Try changing something even something small. Start taking walks in the morning or or take a bath just something small to help you out the the funk. Sometimes thats all it takes. I am sorry that you are feeling so sad.
May I suggest that you locate either a cat or a dog in need of a nice home. They make great companions!
i have two cats and a husband. i feel mildly better today. i went out even though i didn't want to. i just hope that life stays on the level as if anything were to go wrong right now i'd probably crumble.
Hang in there. It is true that talking about your feelings with loved ones helps. Open up to loved ones. Find people who care.
that's just the problem though. my hubby suffers from terrible depression and anxiety as does his mother, who i used to confide in but she's been so ill for ages now that i just can't talk to her about stuff. the situation i'm in is a bit intense really but i can't get into particulars in a public forum because too much of my personal info is already floating about in the ethernet. i can't really turn to my family (who are thousands of miles away) because they don't even know my full situation and don't understand really what i'm going through. non of them believe that i'm even bi-polar just that i suffer depression; so that adds another whole twist to reasons i don't go to them for alot of stuff. i dunno. just feel like one minute i'm fine and want to conquer the world and all it's evils, and the next i'm a mess of idiocy and despair. at least the past few days i've been much more productive. i feel a bit like i lead different lives ... i know that sounds sketchy but it's the only way i can describe it. i sometimes even think about getting a new ID and just sharing my entire personal story in a way that it can't be linked back to me. but i'm just too upfront for all that these days. grrr ... maybe i'm about ready to burst into flames again and rise into a new me, just like a phoenix. would be good really to shed some of the turmoil in my head. and i know all that is a bit 'smoke and mirrors' like but i dont' want anyone to think i'm in some sort of personal harm or anything as i'm not. that even is one thing i know for certain at this point is that i haven't even thought once of suicide or anything that desparate because i love my husband and i know that would kill him (probably literally). i only am trying to think of how to make myself better so i can find strength within myself and carry on in life. i want to be strong for my husband as well, but at this point i feel like i need to focus on me so in the long run i can be there for him.
