This is going to sound ridiculously typical but i dont care. its the truth. I need an alternative to this un-satisfactory life ive been living. i feel like im not made for this world because i dont seem to fit in anywhere. its like the allman brothers ramblin man. thats how i feel. or free bird. is that how we all feel? whats it like to live with like minded people? is it like the beach where they have a literal society? i would love to try something new and just escape the ordinary. Im soo sick of feeling like a failure because im not motivated enough to put on a suit and tie and go to a job that i hate. is that so wrong? i dont think so. i think we are all who we are, and forcing ourselves to be anything else is not what living is all about. So my new friends, I ask you to help me find a new way to live. or a new place or a new anything that is the opposite of what im doing right now, which is basically struggling to please other people while i suffer due to a lack of smiling, and beaches, and homeade pie. Any suggestions? my bags are packed and im on the stoop waiting for something. anything. BE PEACE!!! Jay metalguynineteen@hotmail.com or 801 691 9266
As they say brother - come on home....but do your research first and make sure you'll feel like we be likeminded; for in the freedom the wind blows cold and the choices you make are yours...though we love you - we'll be not holding your hand, telling you what to do - though we care, our hands are Open, both to hold and let go. whatever your choice is...it's yours to grow on. Be Whole And to thine own Self be true Blessings Be along the Way Namaste
Wow, that was insightful. but now for some odd reason im feeling inclined to call you yoda.... dont ask, i dont even know. Be Peace, Jay
All I can say Is I know exactly how you fell! Good luck and tell me what works for you, because I fell the same way. =p Good luck!
i know exactly how you feel. every day i feel like i'm not cut out for the 'regular world' or 'regular life'. lets go! i don't know where, but lets go.
your not alone brother heh, looks like you have found yourself a nice little group of likeminded people for me, i am seeing myself traveling alot and living on the road, and eventually id like to buy some land and start a commune/farm or join one if i can find the right one, or the right people for that matter but we all have the same urge to break free, but dont be stupid
Im going to propose 2 things. 1. Use this, http://www.ic.org/ (international commune), all the communes all over the world have contact information there, just search for what you want. 2. I could call you And we will hook up for some old fashion butt fucking.
I also know how you feel. I feel that way quite often. I have been slowly preparing myself to be nomadic. I am being responsible and obtaining a degree, but my possessions continually get smaller. It is my intent to only have one or two boxes of personal stuff to ship to myself whenever I start traveling, working overseas, and living in communes.
From a book I'm reading: "Whoever has come to know the world has found a corpse, and whoever has found this corpse, of him the world is not worthy"
Hi There are many options to your dilemma, many are intentional communities like Twin Oaks, East Wind, Dancing Rabbit, Red Earth Farms, Dandelion, Echowood, Acorn, Walnut Street Cooperative and all can be found at www.ic.org under community listing. Many of these have openings. I have done this for 12 yrs, lived at many and now am at Echowood in its starting phase. We have an abundance of men, need to balance our gender proportion a bit and maybe entice some queer men to come as well. Good luck in your Journey, brother. To me it has been fun & a good networking tool. DragonWolf Wizard
I ponder alot whether to fit in is a good thing or is it better to stand on the outer limits of life and look in. I am an ENFP, 4 in the Enneagram,outgoing, positive,friendly,an Eagle Scout,waiter for many years,sensitive, gullible, open & vulnerable with others, I cry. I call myself gay, queer, a fag...to all my friends, yet,for me, I don't feel like I fit in with other queer men except we all like sex with men. I am really just a few million atoms all fused together to make a human male. Am I queer ? I am an alcoholic, I am sober, I go to AA meetings yet, I still feel different than the other drunks. Yet, I wasn't a hopeless drunk, never lsot a job, never stopped paying my bills, although, I drank to forget. I am a blonde, blue eyed, white male, yet, my life choices make me different. Am I the WASP that so many Amerikans say has the good life and gets all the breaks? I live in the US, yet, do not feel like boundaries can describe me as an Amerikan, I am not proud of my Amerikan heritage, not with all the atrocities done in the name of our country. I AM an inhabitant of Mother Gaia. Am I from this planet, because I do not feel like I can identify with most people I meet. I do not ever feel secure in my body, I want to go to other planets in other star systems to find people like me. I bond well with other men, not just gay men, as I love hanging with straight men for friendships and hugs. I have lived communally for over 12 yrs, I look 15 yrs younger than my actual age, my emotional age is far younger than that. I do not really fit into the Amerikan Dream. I love hanging with 20 somethings, men mostly. I like to be challenged in areas of work, social interaction and philosphical thought. I do not feel acceptance of myself, whomever I am or whatever I am, yet, I am in love with myself. I want to find other men to bond, to banter, to circle jerk with and to talk openly about life's mysteries. Where are you all? I am not sure anymore if there truly is a sexual persuasion I fit into at all, only that I am male and I like other males, deep intimacy, kissing and cuddling. I want other brothers to hibernate away with to explore for a few years. I am a loner, too, yet, I like meeting new people........ Does anyone relate?? Dragonwolf Wizard
My husband and I feel the same way. We wish we would have raised our children differently from the beginning so that they wouldn't be so freaked if we threw them into a whole new way of life. So now we are waiting until our oldest two are graduated (two years) and then we will take our youngest and start our new life journey. I get so irritated by the way everyday society lives, so hung up on everything, so angry and stressed, caught up in the consumerism and drama. I've always felt I live in an era in which I do not belong and belong in an era from which I did not come. There's an intense feeling of wanting to live the free spirited life with the ability to think and speak your own mind without judgement, be free to live for what makes you happy instead of everyone else. Some people take things too seriously. It's just life! Everyone has a purpose and no one else can tell you what that is. When I go to the festivals and surrounded by likeminded folk, there's a feeling of belonging, love, free thinking, friendship, all that. As soon as I have to return to this life, I feel it's a lie, an act, it's not where I want to be and I actually find myself getting depressed about the way it all is. Just holding out until our new beginning!
Our society offers too few choices to survive. The typical path is get a 9-5 or similar job. Many people are unhappy living working in what is often a sterile environment and living in isolation in some apartment complex. That's why we're working to form communities with their own economies and culture so that people can live the life they choose with a group of people they actually know and care about.
