Im a Sexual Deviant

I am , a sexual deviant.

I like rape and having sex with woman while they sleep ( i did this once with a drunk chick at a party and another time with my girlfreind i placed my penis in her mouth and made her suck me off while she was sleeping , i also like to eat sleeping vaginas... more so then awake ones)I also think the thougth of having anal sex with a girl untill she bleeds is erotic.
I have fantacies of kidnapping young girls takeing them to isolated places holding them captive maybe for a week or 2 and having my way with them repeditly.I masturbate to such thoughts roughly 6-10times a day. I have on afew occasions been drunk and suddenly out of nowhere a very vivid plan or fantacy to break into a womans house and rape her at knife point, iv even thought it out very much . Id use knifes becuz ladies worry alot about there looks and wouldnt want to be horrible disfigurd.And altho i am not attracted to young girls , i do tend to side with the pedophile, i think i understand them . I can see how a young girl is attractive , now i have never been with or plain to be with a underage child ... but i c how one might be. I also enjoy hurting others during sex, through chocking, pulling or Pushing her head into something , Somewho makeing her uncomfortable gets me off.
Knowing she isnt enjoying what im enjoying and knowing that she is letting this happen is Hot. I am a sexual preditor, and will dismiss a girl if i am not sexually intrested.




any thougths, concerns or people of like intrests

 

I'm not touchin' this one with a 10-foot-pole.

 

Ur picture is funny.

 

i vote for therapy before you actually do sometihng against anothers consent

 

I recommend seppuku... immediately. At least you'd go out in a way that's nicer and a tad more honorable than an electric chair.

 

What are you talking about no one is killing anybody! Im very safe here in oregon. As is the people around me. Iv kept these thoughts to myself for longtime, i havnt hurt anyone Besides my penis from over masturbating.


Should i feel bad about these thougths?
Its like ur gonna hear from me in 15yrs on the news
Theripy sounds uncomfortable, i used to go to one for bi polar disorder so they could medicate me , i medicate myself with weed .

 

I still recommend harakiri.



Seriously though....seek help. Now.

 

And isn't that what really matters?

 

I agree with Rubin here
I don't like psychologists much myself, I feel they are too risky (and I absolutely hate psychiatrists)
but you have a serious problem, and you should most certainly seek therapy
what if one day you get too drunk and act out these rape fantasies?
it's not safe to have thoughts like you are having

 

It's already gone past fantasy

 

I dont drink much these days, Im bi polar and without meds.
I used to drink alot but now it makes me feel for lack of better word crazy.
Like i have this surge of primal energy that makes me feel.... powerful, and i start looking for thrills. So i dont drink more then 3beers anymore ... i dont like feeling that way. Now this dosnt happen everytime i get drunk but lets say i got drunk 10times... id say it happens about 4 out of the 10times witch is enought to make me not wanna drink

 

Yea i dont really know how i feel about that... It was 3years ago no 2years, i was 17at the time. I wasnt very drunk when it happend and it probly wasnt wise to tell my freinds but i did. And they told her, She was asleep...and she denys that it happend . As far as rapes are concernd it was reckless , and tastless ... It was weak, i wouldnt even call it a rape, its not worthy of the title. Do you concider it ?

 

yep, ya raped her...and if you think weed is treatment for bi-polar you are dangerously wrong. If you keep on the same course of behavior though you will get to experience more rape though...on the receiving end... in prison...in yer ass. But don't listen to me, I'm only a counselor with 30 years experience...what could I know.

 

your a funny counsler , in my ass, thats a shitty thought
Dangerously wrong hmmm, alright.
I know some people have had trouble with pot and bipolar, but i have always found it to be beinifical on my manic days VERY helpfull, on depressed days it dosnt do as well. but still better then the pills the doc gave me

But ill give u ur credit, seeing as u have been in ur profession longer then iv been alive.

 

Heres the deal bud, I have nothing to gain from bullshitting you. I've worked with far more folks with bi-polar that I can remember. I know the medication has some shit side-affects. If you flat out don't intend to take the meds, at least don't delude yourself into thinking that smoking dope will controll the illness...it won't. It may mask the syptoms or it may help you delude yourself but it doesn't help the bi-polar. Man I've held way too may crying young folks who were admitted to our hosp[ital after doing some crazy shit while off their meds. We get them straightened back out and then the law comes and drags them off to jail or the pen. It really, truely sucks, from my point of view, to see some kid I've help get it back together head off for the hell that waits in prison. Be kind to yourself and accept the fact that life has given you a shit disease process which you have to deal with...it ain't fair but its real...good luck, Steve

 

Thank you steve i do appriciate the information.
I dont want to go to jail, or prison. Its bad enough here in oregon .
Becuz i dont take my pills i sometimes forgett im even bi polar unless it cums up in convo or i act a fool. So the weed really isnt helping hmm and i thought i was on a sumwhat normal plain... Well again Thank you.

 

Everyone's different. If weed helps you, don't let this cat convince you it doesn't. And the meds they give you are just horrible. I wouldn't take them if I were you.

 

You Nalencer, cause added pain and grief to people who have enough problems to deal with. What gives you the right to tell him to do things that may very well damage his life and cause harm to others? What expeience do you have with this, what education, how many years have you dealt with this? If you are bi-polar and choose not to treat it, thats fine, its your life and choice. I'll put my 30 years of experience and 17 years of education up against your opinion any day. I got no problem what so ever with smokin' dope. I got a real problem with using an herb that should be sacred for something it does not effectively treat.

 

Dude, here is what YOU said about YOURSELF:

YOU titled your thread "I'm a Sexual Deviant", YOU said "I like rape..." and "...I did this once with a drunk chick at a party..." YOU said "I also enjoy hurting others during sex" and YOU said of yourself "I am a sexual predator"

You asked if I considered what you did to that drunk chick at the party rape, so here's my answer:

HELL, YEAH! You raped her!

Please listen to yarapario's posts. Please work with your doctors on getting yourself under control. You got off the hook this last time, but the way you're going at things, your luck's not going to hold. Please get help before you get hurt or hurt another.

 

There is almost a part of me that hopes you pass out drunk in a alley somewhere then about 50 crackheads come rob you then have there way with you for about 2 days untill you are paralyzed from the waist down that way you wont ever be able to rape anyone. Or you could see a doctor IMMEDIATLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!