i love how it is so fucked up, i love how i am such a fucking loser, i love how i can never bring myself to do shit, i love how hypocritic i am when i try to help people i just love myself so much, ive fantasised about putting a happy bullet through my lovable, yet non existant brain o the refreshing feeling of a hot bullet ripping through my brain, and saying hello to my thallamus while passing i love how i alienate my friends and others i "care" about with my wonderful misery goddammit, how i love life
Hey - Just curious Do you consume any food with Aspertame in it? Diet Coke, certain sodas and sweet n' low sugar replacements??? It can wreck brain chemistry and deplete happy neurotransmitters which we already lose quickly in today's world due to stress and toxins...so it's important to make sure were taking care of that part of our brain. Sweet Misery - Aspertame Movie Trailer - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-n-gA0wvi84
I would also look into the following supplements - http://www.vitacost.com/NaturesWay5HTPl5HydroxytryptophanwithVitaminB6C - 5-HTP http://www.vitacost.com/Nutiva-Organic-Hemp-Oil - Hemp Oil - Omega 3's for Brain Health http://www.sunfood.com/cgi-bin/order/index.cgi?id=325858664644&d=single&item_id=1059&m=home - Raw Cacao - For Trytophan, Magnesium, Seratonin, and MAOInhibitors and super brain health NOTE* I am not a doctor and I can't cure or prescribe anything. Hope this helps some if your really feeling off...they'll help you put your nervous system back together so your more clear and able to work on your relationships and capable of handling life.
I know how it is to have self hatred, and hate life to the point where I wont go anywhere except to the bathroom for days. Don't give up hope in life; life CAN be great and it CAN be awful. Try, even if you dont feel like it, to go out with your friends just for a few hours it can actually help. Someone on here told me what goes up will eventually come down, life is like that up and down always. Stay strong, because there are people out there who care about you. I dont know you but I care about you. Smile action lad it can get better
i admit, the day i posted that, i was feeling very pessimistic and sick of myself granted, i do feel that way off and on in my life, insecure, feeling like everyone hates me, or feeling like i am worthless, but i appreciate the responses, and no, i dont drink diet coke, and i plan to stop drining soft drinks cold turkey
hey man, good news! if you're really considering killing yourself, you should think first. now's the perfect chance to make everything better, right? i mean, really. if in the back of your mind, there's an escape [like you've already designed, suicide] then there's hardly any consequence for your actions! so why not just live and have a great ass time? and if you REALLY give it a good try, and improve your life and you STILL don't like it, well, then there's a way out. BUT, if you happen to have a completely different outlook, new friends that DON'T hate you, or make you feel insecure - then i strongly urge you to KEEP IT UP man. so hey, just something to think about. it's your choice what you do with your life. but if somebody hates you or makes you feel insecure, i give you sincere permission to kick their balls so hard they end up in their mouth! rock on man
