i am, and do everything i told myself i would never do... back when i had morals. okay.. back when i was like 9 (i was very smart, except inexperienced).. good age. i was raised well.. i knew what i wanted, i knew exactly what i wanted to be, or didnt want to be.. then when i reached the age of 13 or something,, i guess my rebellious years.. i started to go into this phase, and i just did the opposite of everything i never wanted to be.. -- thing is... i was trying. that stuck with me for a few years... now i really am what i was trying to be. and now i dont even want to be this anymore. its sickening me. so.. i really just have to become what i already was.... does this make sense... lol
yeah pretty much the same thing happened to me. I've done so much I said I would never do and my morals basically went out the window.
Have you ever heard of something like 'disorder in puberty'? what you wrote makes sense to me. basically it is about a person's brain being unbalanced and a little bit chaos during teenage due to the rapid growth that changes you from a child to an aduld.it is those chemicals and hormones that matters. any clues?
Arch I feel exactly the same why I hate who I have become and wish I was who I used to be Morals brought kind of balence to my life But now its chaos sigh
Morals in this country are fucked. Pleasure is seen as bad. Having sex is seen as bad, drugs are seen as bad, its bullshit. As long as you're not hurting others then your morals are 100% good.
nobody ends up being who they wanted or what they wanted out of life.... make a list of short term and long term goals
When I was about your age I had the same feeling. Gradually it worked itself out and I became the person I wanted to be again. At some point you just say to yourself this is enough. I've had it with being this way and I'm going to change. You're still young so it's not too late.