I love women. But how mysterious they remain. I was just texting with someone from some of my classes and was thinking "its you now, youre entering the game again, her attention is directed at you", and then I stopped. Fuck that shit. Is there a reason I'm this cynical at 25? Am I doomed to a life of 2 for 1 drafts and masturbation? Or will someone resurrect some form of romantic life/energy in me? Ladies, what do you think about romantically apathetic men, comfortably numb so to speak? And men, how do you reach this state and how do you leave it? These questions take up my mind
Well yeah for sure. I guess what I'm saying is the way things are going now I dont really let myself meet someone unless its hooking up or getting fucked up together. Damn writing this thread made me realize I basically resist connections now. Fuck, that kind of just happened. Oh well, thats life I guess..
Well not so much like you are thinking. More than a few times now I have met these great women and as soon as the connection was there I become vacant. But I think I'm vacant the entire time if that makes sense. And by connection Im talking about the type that is the precursor to anything physical so I'm not some womanizer. I just walk away because I dont want to deceive anyone. Either that or they think my lifestyle is too self destructive and walk away. Yeah there have been a few hookups, but I think I prefer to be fucking crazy about someone. So yeah I have been very serious about a couple people in the past and also spent a lot of time trying to forget about it. Speaking of self destrutction, its 900 time to go drink more
I like to shake them up a little and let them know they can get way better than whatever bitch in the past brought upon that apathy and was stupid enough to let them go... just a thought
What if someone was just honest with you and told you they weren't going to play games and that your apathy was not acceptable and whatever effort you put in would pay off? Would that completley turn you on or off?
also, you shouldn't be drinking so much. It's bad for your liver and hinders ha. change to sparkeling water and fruit juice and thn just a beer or two or a glass of wine a night.
You sir, have overcome the first hurdle. I salute you. First comes apathy, then depression, then self-realization, then you will climb to the mountaintop and scream for all to hear "I SHALL NOT BE RULED BY THE VAGINA!" Afterward, search though you may, you will not find true love. It will find you.
That last part was so sweet I coul cry! well not cry, but it was very 'ahhhhhhh that's so sweet' like.
That is the hardest lesson a young man must learn. I've been in love, truly in love four times in my life. I didn't learn it until the end of the second.
You're cynical at 25 because you didn't settle for marrying the first piece of ass you got when you were 18...and that's NOT a bad thing. I'm 24 and cynical. Hell I was 23 and cynical....and 22 and cynical...it's OK to be cynical. (and if you keep saying cynical, it becomes meaningless...then you're all set ) And what do I think about romantically apathetic men? Perfect match. I'm so apathetic about relationships anymore...it's ridiculous...maybe it's because I'm moving and don't really care anymore about anything around here LOL...either way you're fine...and normal... And I'm still waiting for that cuddle while eating and watching Fresh Prince of Bel Aire...you could have been here already...
True.... I never really think about it that way, but I guess that is probably one of the major causes of it. I think it depends on the situation, sometimes I might be like oh shit shes serious and leave. But I can imagine that being really badass too so I guess it depends on if she had already broken through my defenses for lack of a better word. Haha I know I need to stop getting wasted so much. Ive really been fucking my body up lately, but its so much fun.
Hhahahahahaha love the mountaintop imagery. Youre really right, and I think a certain amount of self realization has taken place in the past couple of years so it seems like the cycle should come full circle. Definitely been through the depression, but the apathy persists. I agree completely about it finding you. One of my concerns in writing the thread in the first place is that part of me thinks I'm going to miss it when it does find me since I'm so apathetic and party a lot. If that makes sense. But I guess the truth is it will most likely happen in light of that stuff. Fuck yeah it is..
You're completely right, I'm glad I didnt marry her or anyone else for that matter too young. And I hear you, Ive been cynical for a few years now. Its just a sharp contrast from the idealism I used to feel. That could be another thing I want to move and travel, and dont really want to feel stuck somewhere. It sounds like you know what I'm talking about. This might be normal for our generation who knows. And Im waiting too, its too bad I have a presentation monday. I'm definitely spontaneous enough to drive to michigan. And after the cuddle session we would have to go check out canada. Buuuuut youre moving so maybe we'll have to do that in cali then go check out mexico and some beaches and mountains. Im hoping to head west after new years
I know exactly what you're talking about. WE're movers and shakers...we can't be tied down...but there's nothing wrong with cuddling with someone a little every once in awhile And you should definitely look me up some time
