So I'm siting here trying to think of how to best explain how I'm felling right now. I guess alone would sum it up although that is not right entierly. I'm having problems with everyday life becasue of my social situation I guess. My friends are great, but it still seams l can not make a true connection with them no matter how long I know them, not there fault I think it's just part of being huamn you know. No matter how much we experiance together there will always be thing I can not share with or explain to them. I feel the same with my family. My Mom and Dad are both great to me and I have my siblings but still no one I can make a connection with, It fells like all these poeple play a certain role in my life and are confined by that role, so My dad wil be expected to give me trouble about not working and stuff like that, while my firends will be my smokeing buddys and people I get in trouble with. I don't know what it is that is missing from my life other than a girl, but I can tell there is a hole because of it. I fell like many of the things I would I think about and am interested in and would like to share I can't. I really crave some connection to some one who I'm more compatibole with, someone who shares my intrests and can look at things in a light simmilar to mine. I'm surrounded by people I love but at the same time fell isolated within myself. It's been a very werid and persisting felling I have trouble explaing but it's gotten to the point where it makes me fell down on a day to day bassis. So I figured I would post and see what other people think. My dating situation doesnt help either, I've been single way to long for some one my age. : ) I don't even want to meet the girl of my dreams, just a girl... some girl I can have fun with for a while, and maybee help to get my off these weird thoughts. I need a way to let go, and let some pressure off, an escape so I'll stop dwelling and can just be.
quit smoking weed and be social? edit: and posting on hipforums it destroys your life one post at a time
if you truly feel alone and down on a day to day basis, somethin may be goin on there. I don't want to be specific, because i don't know what im talking about. The way it sounds to me, besides a girlfriend, you've got a good support system going. So if you still feel alone and such, maybe the problem isn't the people you're surrounded by?
ever since my bro died ive been feeling JUST like you. He was the only person i connected with and liked the same things i liked. The trust was just there. Now that hes gone..im..alone. Just like you buddy.
i used to be like that. i still do sometimes. but then i found my boyfriend and we connect great, when i am around him i feel extremely loved and everything. but sometimes when hes on vacation for a while i start to feel that way. because i have nobody to connect with, my best friend lives in alabama and my other friend lives in west virginia, whereas i live in philly so theres not much i can do about my social situation, and my family, the best way to describe it, hates me. well, maybe not my mommy but thats another story. but if you have what i had, there could be something running deeper that you don't know about. i needed medication at one point.
I found that(with me at least) if I date a girl that is like me I can't talk about things and make a connection. I crave a difference. idk. But the girl i'm dating now is like a polar opposite, and I have never felt more connected to a person before. Rather strange actually.
I have the same connection yet disconnection from people too Fallout.. i like my family.. but im not all that family oriented.. we do the whole holiday thing and thats it.. other than that i sometimes feel weird around my parents.. same goes with friends.. i like my friends.. but at the same time.. i'm secretive around them.. and at times dont want to be around them.. i've been known to go months without contact with friends to the point they thought "maybe he died?".. and most of the time i need a reason to be around them instead of just hanging out.. its sometimes weird and confusing
they say opposites attract i like sleeping but my boyfriend likes skateboarding. but we both like weed and videogames so yeah
