I don't feel appreciated or valued what so ever by the ones I love. Especially by the only person I want to value me. I know, it's not anyone's job but my OWN to make me happy. But I just wish someone would look up once in awhile and say "Hey Jessica, you look nice today". or maybe "That was really nice of you, thanks". Why won't anyone recognize me and my worth? Why am I not a priority? I sure as hell deserve it.
only from within will this validation be made real. To look outside yourself, or hope embraced with expectations and attachments will drive you crazy. How you see yourself does matter. Yes its nice to be appreciated, loved and seen for a worthy person but even if all these things are there you still will not know these until your heart reflects the power of being true to yourself no matter what the circumstances. I asked a blind man one day how he saw light. He replied the same way I see dark. I know that even without I am me.
Thank you old crone. Somethings happen for a reason, and I think my night last night really put things in perspective for me. You've articulated what the world is trying to show me.
The only person I really need just isn't there at the moment. And I think that's making things worse. I'm just overwhelmed with all my new life changes, and to imagine my life without him is just adding to my heartache.
