The more I think about it, the more lame this sounds, but I feel like I've lost the ability to take risks or something. The only thing is, the part that makes this so upsetting is the fact that I want to be the opposite way. I wish I could just put myself out there. I wish I could just hop along for the ride, and not care where the destination is. I'm not depressed or anything, but the part that makes this so difficult is how I don't think I've taken a single risk in my life! I feel so self conscious about saying it but I've never had a girlfriend, never even experimented with any kind of substance... and I guess I just feel left out or something. I feel like I'm missing out on teenage stuff. People consider me to be more mature than I am because of this, but I honestly beg to differ. I mean, even if I am mature, I'm not happy. And I'd gladly give up their perception of my 'maturity' to just live, and be free. I feel like total shit right now as I'm typing this. Even just confessing how I feel right here seems kind of hard to do. Bottom line - I just feel like I want to have experienced life before it passes me by. I see so many fucking people regret their lives for their choices [or lack thereof], and I feel like I NEVER, EVER want this to happen to me. I feel fed up. I want to use this energy for a greater power. I just want to live. No strings attached.
Well i guess the only risk you have to conquer is actually taking A risk. Not everything is a risk, because not everything goes wrong. You dont have do experiment with substances, go for unplanned trips or anything. If you feel like not being involved in something because of the risk, just ask yourself if its rational or not. Go on your own sometime, jump off cliff into some water... get some shit out of your system... just encouraging advice.
like ^ said just step out if all gets fucked fuck it all and do it a different way. I don't think you could ever fuck up everything there is to fuck up in one lifetime. doing nothing ur whole life and regretting it would suck... we need to at least have some fun with this shitty life that was forced upon us. smile and live.
Being fed up is passion, and passion can transform these negative feelings into positive ones. Don't feel pissed off, but rather feel EMPOWERED. Look, even if you lost everything, don't have any friends, don't have a life, or feel like you're at the end of your rope, I have news for you: This only HELPS your cause! Because the less you have and the worse you feel, the less there is to lose! So look, you hardly have anything to lose, and everything to gain. Might as well give it all you got.
There is the issue of perspective....right now you are in it and everything is right there including judgements about what you should be doing...do what interestes you...be committed to that or if you don't know what interests you have explore...find some things you are passionate about...it may be music, or programing, or science, or girls, whatever just involved youself and let what comes come without judgement....it just is ....no right or wrong...no risk or no risk, just experience what is there for you
