I'm 18 and a virgin in every way imaginable. I've never even masturbated. Needless to say, it's getting to me. My birth control pills are driving me insane. But this isn't the point. I had my first dating experience over the summer, and now that I'm in college I can't help but wonder if we should have been intimate. Not just because I'm going crazy, but he was very special to me. He changed my whole outlook on dating. I didn't think guys like him existed in the world. I suppose hoping to going home and finding him single again isn't the thing to do, but I can't imagine losing it to anyone else.
I wanted him to be my first, but now he's gone, and I can't imagine doing it with anyone else. I'm going to die a virgin!
Then try to get back with him, maby he still wants to be with you, or if you don't see each other anymore because you're in colege, try not to think of him and find someone interesting. Maby new feelings will develope and you'll find you're guy. Don't opsses about your ex, he is your first one, you'll get over him.
don't waste your time obsessing over something that's already over. odds are someone else will come along. until then, for god's sake, masturbate!!!!
It's your first crush. They are the hardest to get over but you need to move on and find the second one that's even better just waiting for you. Don't be fooled thinking he's the only one for you. It's called infatuation and it will pass.
