Hurts her

i was having sex with my close friend. we had drunk a bottle of vodka allready, and we seemed to be both enjoying ourselves, she was pretty paranoid cause her mum was home and there is no lock on the door, but after about maybe 10 minits shes like it hurts and we stoped. and she is pretty emotionaly unstable, she started crying. so it was a little weird. then later on she was sayin sorry n shit. im like no reason to be sorry for anyhting. but she somtimes cries when were really drunk, just for what seems like no reason. shes like somtimes it just hurts, but shes no virgin. maybe im just being paranoid. i dont know. maybe she just said that cause she was really paranoid about her mum in the next room. or she just got into a bad loop in her mind and got upset for some reason, i comforted her and all that shit, like all the other times shes got upset, but its just a bit weird. i cant remember alot of the conversation, i had drunk a bigger half then her too. meh i dont know what im asking.

 

i talked to her a little bit tongith about it, n she said somthing about somtimes feeling hesitant towards having sex because it makes her emotional whether its good sex or bad sex it doesnt matter. were gonna talk more about it. but im wondering if she was like sexually abused as a child or somthing. it appears that way to me. she has really low self esteem like she thinks shes let her mum down in every way, she cries alot about alot of things, and maybe she thinks shes being a slut or somthing. she has alot of issues. i dont know.

 

is this the same chick as we previously talked about?

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if its a different one then you sure do have a brilliant habit of choosing good ones to form physical relations dont you

 

she was probably raped or molested as a child... 90% sure of it... thats how girls get..

 

haha. it could be i wont say tho. far out. as long as you keep this shit to yourself.

yeah. and cause her dad was a fucker, and left when she was young. maybe theres more to things...

 

shes a bit crazy. i gave her lsd last week, and whilst she feels good from it.alot of nights she freaks out and calls me cause weird things happen in her room, last night she called me and told me some freaky shit. scared me. she also thought i was whispering into her brain when she was alone. she was kinda crazy before she took acid anyway. maybe the lsd is helping her work thro a few things. so she is particularly vunerable now. perhaps.

 

why would i tell anyone? trust me >.<

its quite possible some form of abuse or violation has occured. either that or she is jut fucked up. i used to be abit similar... not quite as bad... but i used to get hallucinations and shit and have to call up my best friend (boyfriend at the time)

it was scary shit and it was helpful to have him there beside me (figuretively)

drugs would probably make it worse for her in the long run.

 

Maybe it's just me, but do you think it is wise to give hallucinogens to someone who might not have their complete wits about them? If she's borderline schizo, the psychedelics can bring that out. Which is why my best friend refuses to do them, as schizophrenia runs in her family. If she's having some issues, the last thing she needs is acid, shrooms, alcohol, any of it. It'll only cloud her mind more and make healing harder.

 

yeah, i didnt think it was a good idea either. but she wanted it. and i had it their, and i gave it to her. it just sorta happend. but we talked about it alot for a while first. but she freaked out a little, and never wants it again. so thats good, well not good that she freaked out...

 

My old friend from a school that i used to go to was molested as a child by her uncle and she really beats herself up over it. Now she basically has sex with everyone in her family. Shes proud of it to because she would always come to school the next day after having sex with her brother and brag about it. I dont know what her deal is but shes nasty. I dont think my story goes a long with your story about being molested but i just wanted to share that. But if your friend was molested as a child she needs to find help or find someone she can talk to because that kindof thing can really mess with someones mind and they could get really hurt. You should try talking to her more. Let her know that you will always be there for her no matter what and that she can trust you. Once she learns to trust you then she will talk to you more and probly tell you whats wrong.

 

well she does get drunk and fuck her friends while her mom's a couple rooms over...

 

Sounds like a crazy bitch to me.

But crazy bitches make for the best lovin'.

 

this chick is seriously fucked. i dont even like her as a friend. and man, the sex is shit anyway. last night we all took extasy, and she was being soo annoying in every possible way and was kissing and coming on to every single guy. us guys were all talkin and loookin at each other like what the fuck. i thinks it just the way i saw her on E's. reminded me of how i see some people on acid. sure you could blame the E's, but in my opinion the E's just help you be yourself. and if yourself are are dumb bitch slut. than so be it.

heh. maybe we should stop feeding her drugs. her minds pretty fucked allready
im not one to stop talkin to a friend, but this will be a first for me. her constant fucked up weird shit isnt worth shitty casuall sex i could get from her anyway.
i dont mean to sound like a fucktard towards this girl, but fucks me christ... fuck it.

 

I was raped and molested as a child and I've noticed that I'm NEVER in the mood! When I am, it hurts. I was told by a doctor that it's a mental condition that I expect it to hurt just based on the physical/emotion pain I had dealt with. That is probably why it hurts her sometimes.

 

Dude, have you just changed who you were talking about? A week ago she was a close friend who you wanted to have sex with, and now you don't even like her?!?! If a friend has issues man, you don't just dump them. Fair enough, if she was just a sexual partner and was fucking you about, but it sounds like you're being really unfair to someone who, not much more than a week ago, you had a strong bond with.

I understand peer pressure, and if your mates are laughing at her, then you feel you should join in? But it's just fucking about with her even more. If you can turn on her this drastically in such a short time, when she hasn't wronged you in any way, then do you think she was right to stop the sex with you in the first place?

Fucked up friends don't need dumping, they need helping. I have problems all the time that my friends can't help, or do anything about, but they help just by being there. You're not gonna help this girls insecurities if you drop her. I suggest you at least talk to this girl before you 'stop talking to her', it's the least she deserves from a 'close friend.'

 

iv never 'dumped' a friend in my life before. and , but shes just fucked up annoying and a bitch.

 

is this the same girl?
coz seriously... everything you hear about her is true.

 

delete. paranoid about this info

 

delete- heh

 

ok, she does sound scary, i can see why you want to get away. i just can't see that you were that close to her in the first place? But yeah, if she tried to rape you, that does make it difficult to reconcile things