Hello I am new here, well I’m going to go ahead and introduce myself. I live in Miami, and I am very confused I have a girlfriend of two years which I am very much in love with. Which only make matters worse. Because I know that I am gay. The thought of it really makes a bit loose in the stomach because I honestly don't want to be. All of my life I have deeply tried to stop looking at guys and think of girls when I masturbate etc etc. but in 20 years everything has failed. I knew i was gay ever since i was young i have always thought of men as more beautiful. I think women are great and love them but honestly am not fully attracted to them. i have only been questioned about twice my entire life on my sexuality but quickly set the person straight. to tell you the truth, I am scared I am REALLY scared, and that is why I am here I just need this secret which I have held all of my life out which is why I am going to write everything I have let in all of my life. My girlfriend beautiful, she is a model, her heart is warm and she is perfect I truly am in love with her, I would like to make a family with her one day. but at the same time I don't it's not fare to her or me, ahhhhhhh sorry I can't put anything in order I guess since this is my first time telling anyone it's all just blurting out, sorry for the incoherence of this rant. well what else, i dunno what else to put really, i was just taking a shower and felt like i really needed to do this and thought of a bunch of things i was going to put in here but after drinking my starbucks i feel fine again.
Well first thanks for telling us all about your story. I see that you are having problems with being honest that you are gay , and do you think it's fair to drag this girl along while you are not in love with her the way you would be with a man?? I'm not saying that you don't love her but just in a diffirent way then would with a man. And also the big thing is , you deserve to be happy and by being honest it will bring you to happiness in the long run. Well you may be saying who does this girl think she is but my older brother recently went through a similar situation and we talked about it. So if you are interested in talking to me PM me antime, I would love to help or just be there so you can be yourself and not hide!! Peace Man and good luck!!!!
i know i know, i have tried to break up with her, but she keeps noting how perfect we are and really doesn't let me break up with her. this is the scariest thing that has been haunting me since childhood.
oh and by the way, i would really pm you but really don't know how to, this is my first day on this website. sorry
Well have you told her why you want to break up with her?? Want me to pm you and all you have to do is press reply on the bottom right side of the message?? Peace
Welcome to the forums. I wish you good luck in working out your problems with your girlfriend and your sexuality. There are plenty of people here who are willing to help. Sometimes just talking helps a lot.
