Everyday this shit gets harder Trying to let go, But my grasp gets tighter. My emotions & thoughts stay bottled Inside this beautiful body. On the outside yes there is beauty But on the inside there is so much more! A combination of love, hate, confusion, couriosity,... The list goes on and on. Everyday I'm forced to live with these thoughts and questions With no explanation, no answers and I'm left feeling hopeless. Every blue moon I am able to distract my mind, Or I let my mind be distracted, Let myself feel this false sense of security. This is the bliss I once loved. As time goes on this starts to fade And reality hits, I'm back Here with all my thoughts and all my emotions.