Ok, so this was really not fun at all - I had this dream that started off awesome, but turned so disturbing...sorry its a bit long. Anyway, I was older and married and we were having our first child. It was born (well, it just sort of appeared, no labour - if only it was that easy ), and it was beautiful baby boy. I wanted to brestfeed him, but he was taken away and I was suddenly really, really tired. So I went to sleep, but when I woke up I ran out to the nursery to see him. He was just gorgeous, and I said "ok, sweetheart, mummy's just going to put on her glasses so she can see you". Then, the baby sat up and said "I know, you have bad vision" I was like WTF, my baby's a genuis, and was about to run and get my husband, but the baby said "No, wait. It's not what you think. You only see me like this because it's what you expect. Close your eyes, open them and take another look" So I did, and he was no longer a baby but a grown man. By now I was freaking out and was all "what's going on". Then the baby/man explained "When you were tired, you didn't fall asleep - you died. That was 22 years ago, you have been dead for 22 years. There is no point in going to fetch your husband, because he is no longer here. He has moved on, forgotten you. So has everyone else. You are only a distant memory" And then, after trying to make my friends and family see me (which none of them could) I woke up in tears. It was not ka pai at all... So, yes. Fucked up much? Ewwwww.
hmm... its times like this im glad im a guy.... id guess this is just a mix of normal instincts and fears, so youre probly not insane