Im a 21 year old female. The only same sex experience i've had was as a child. U know like when you play house with your friends. We kissed and touched each other. I would say I was around 10. But I've always liked boys and have always had boyfriends. However, in about the 10th grade I began to develop crushes on girls. Even though I would still have a boyfriend. I had my first male love in 10th grade. When I had the first crush on a girl I never wanted to get physical with that person, it was more like wanting to get to know the person really well. But I would get excited (not sexually) when I thought about this person. Similar to feelings I had about guys, except I always wanted to get physical with guys. It happened again around the 11th grade with an older woman who was over the high school newspaper I wrote for. Now at 21 I notice I mostly just get excited when I see beautiful women and men. Maybe I'm just obsessed with beauty. I dont know. I dont think I'm bi, because the thought of being with a woman sexually doesnt really turn me on. I watched lesbian porn and became bored. But that happens most of the time I watch porn, so maybe that wasn't a good test. The reason I feel confused is because I had this really erotic dream about me an another woman. So I dont know what this shit means.
I'd say you're just curious about the same sex. But if you want to know for sure, the only way is through expiramentation... I think
Our sexual identies manifest in so many way and on so many levels it seems almost pointles at times to try to stick a label on ourselves. It seems very natural to observe another human being and recognize the beauty and allure of that body. While I am emtionally, physically and romantically attracted to men I can see a beatiful woman and easily imagine the joy of being with her though for me it is only the appreciation of her beauty and not anything that I would want to pursue. We are such complex creatures that we defy simple categories and labels. Look, dream and enjoy, follow your heart where ever it takes you and do so with love. Your dream means only that you a fully alive and human...congratulations!
I experienced much the same thing in highschool. I had friends that I liked a lot, morethan regular friends, but now that I know I'm bi, I realize I was attracted to them.
