The other night I had a dream that one of my best friends died. The dream upset me a whole lot, even though I think it was only a release dream. I woke up crying, and wanted to call him, but it was late... The next day, I tried to call him, but he didn't answer. All that day, I was extremely anxious about talking to him... I dont' know why. I just felt realy anxious, and I think I knew he would make me feel better. So he calls about 9:30PM and we start talking and I tell him about the dream and how upset it had made me. He laughed it off and helped me realize it wasn't such a big deal. We had a good normal conversation, but he put me on hold for a few minutes to answer a beep, and when he came back, I had this nagging in the back of my mind that I had to tell him that I loved him. (Now we've said this to one another a few times, but usually it was part of somethign else... like he'd say, "Nobody loves me anymore... *sigh*" And it was kind of jokingly, and I'd say, "Awe, I still love you... now suck it up whiny... " lol. Also joking, of course.) Well, I didn't tell him. But even after we hung up there was still the same nagging. So I called him back... after 11PM, and I call him up and I say, "I gotta tell you something..." and I feel these tears welling in my eyes, and you can hear it in my voice. And he asked what, very concerned. And I said, "I just want you to know I love you." And he said, "I love you, too, Sam. Is there something going on I should know about? Is something wrong with you or me? Is something going to happen to one of us?" And I said, no. I had no clue what had come over me, I just had to tell him.... and I apologized for upsetting him, and he kept asking me if I was sure I was okay... and I was. But I had a near panic attack that night, had to take an emergency anxiety pill, and I still was fighting all night long not to have the anxiety attack. And even today I'm tense and irritable and every muscle in my body is aching from the tense way I slept... I don't know what to make of the whole episode. Any insight or just someone to tell me I'm not crazy would help.
death exemplifies no power/beyond control ? then find some power , and be patient in this quest . an idea of time itself needs understanding . cycle on , sunshine .
You are not crazy hon. It happens, sometimes a person we care about shows up in a dream to get our attention but that person represents something/someone else. I have awoke from dreams such as this with absolute panic, as it would normally turn out it was about me alone and what this person represents about me. Look at your own life. What does he represent to you? What does he represent about you? It could be "just a release dream" . Just pay attention hon. He may just be reflecting a part of you , that you find difficult to let go consciously but know deep inside you are ready to. Take care, alright?
Thanks tikoo and hibiscus... I'm feeling much better today. Everything both of you said makes sense in this situation... I'm sure it's a lot of things combined, and I just need to concentrate on figuring out what, and finding the answer.
