Today I woke up like I dont often do Seeing what damage I had to minimalize. I still dont know what is going on and my head is pounding... im afraid to check myspace .... Thump thump thump.
Haha for real though I wouldn't be surprized. I feel like I have damage to fix and I dont even know what yet. I hate this feeling.
yeah.... sometimes its not true.... i dont remember going to bed... my friend came over and then i continued to drink.... i was talking to some good friends on messengers- i was sooo drunk... i left convos up and pieces come back to me and really, what i was saying... fuck..... i know this makes no sense but seriously i just screwed up months of effort with a certain person. i dont WANNA know the damage i dont even know how i got to bed.. or when....
i know the feeling, also. it sucks. i told my friend's husband she was cheating on him one night when I was drunk. He deserved to know, but the way it happened really sucked.
Yeah..... I hate that feeling and I don't get TRASHED often. Used to. and this is exactly why i dont do this often.... I like being in control.... All my friends I talked to knew I was drunk so I dont care about that.... I just hope everyone everyone realizes.... maybe its not as bad as i thought....
Honestly, I'm very opposite of most people. I find a lot of good things happen when I get so messed up that I can't remember. It's sorta A'la' Dude Where's My Car.
A friend came over... and held me close for an hour and a half tonight. A hot guy friend. He didtn try to sleep with me. I needed that. I cant even explain why... or e evn how he knew.,...
