You have done horrible things but you somehow forgot

Sometimes I can't help imagining that something is horribly wrong at work, and it's because I've done something. I imagine that everyone at work is getting together to talk about it, and talk about what they should do with me. I imagine that perhaps my phone will ring at any second and someone will tell me about it.

This is always something I've done or said without being able to remember it. But it's odd that I wouldn't remember something that caused such a large commotion and such!

At this point, I usually tell myself that either I don't remember it because it's something that I didn't realize was a big deal, and so just forgot about because it didn't seem like a big deal to me,even though it actually was a huge deal to everyone else, and was actually terribly inappropriate and only now am I coming to realize it. I tell myself that the only possible way it would not seem like a huge deal to me is because I'm completely insane, and so of course it wouldn't seem like a big deal to me, because crazy people can't tell the difference, and they don't have control over what they do, and they remember very selectively.

Anyway, have a nice day!

 

if you know you did something... couldn't you just ask somebody what you did?

 

ignorance is bliss... soak it up 'til you have to pay for your (supposed) actions (or maybe lack thereof?)

 

If I asked someone then they would think that I did something and I don't want them to think about it, because if they don't know what I did I'd like it to stay that way-- it's that serious!!!

 

damn man guess you learned to keep better track of your memory next time good luck hope it comes back to yeah.

 

It may be just that - imagination. I tend to take things seriously and personally sometimes even when things aren't meant seriously or personally. You may have the same thing and just think you did something wrong but actually didn't.

 

Nope, it's definitely serious. I can tell by the way everyone is acting. But they won't tell me because they just expect me to know. But they might just be acting that way because they don't know and want me to confess.

 

I forget everything everytime I turn arround,

Sometimes the truths change and you can't remember something because it would hurt you needlessly to do so, don't worry about it and take it as gracefully as possible,

There's so much I'm not allowed to know,
When I look for a logical connection my mind goes blank,

I have learned to just roll with it and get high

 

Oh man you sound like me everyday as I'm walking into work.....I am always expecting a good old fashioned yelling at.....either because I know that I did something that may have pissed someone off or they may have made something up to yell at me about.....

Some people that i happen to work with tend to be a bit irrational, bipolar ish, and highly dramatic.....it's like a loose cannon sometimes walking around in that place, you never know when it will go off....

Luckily I grew up with a family member like that.....and after the ulcers healed....I learned to deal with it : )