i have made my stop back at the computer. wow. i have rewrote this. alot man. haha i guess i am still tirpping pretty bad.
checkin back in now. i can't even type out all i'd want to say...so why even bother. i wish i could just decisviely figure a way to speak while um whilst tripping.
i think this will be my last trip. period. don't wanna do it anymore to tell you the truth. edit: i still agree with what i had to say. i wanted to post again but decided to just post in an edit.;..... this has been a completely influentual trip i do believe so. redefining has been done, defining has been done, thinking about redefining and defining has been done and then thusly thinking about....etc. you get the point. here is the mision statement IM DONE. haha.
what if i do ask will a ton of confidence and some inner peace get you? and then what will these things that you get do for you? important questions. don't think them lightly. they aren't lingering. their vibrations are tense, invasive and loathing. inner peace in a land of turmoil will only get you one thing in life take a breath. that's what it got you. inner turmoil and acceptance will get you the same exact thing. i'd understand confidence to some degree as long as it doesn't get mixed up with arrogance...conflict arises when one mixes the two...inner peace is just a facade of the day's of old. if one can find such an inner peace with a drug they should find that it can be found without as well. seeking absolution, questioning oh the questioning. the only thing that drugs have lead me to find within myself is my ego. i hear all this talk of loss of ego and have experienced it for a time but does one regain or redevelop this said ego after such a seedy drug. lsd accelerates things, ages you too quickly. not in physical year or quantifications but ages the fictitious image of a soul. i guess with others it may be different but in my case i soar alone. **sorry if i put anybody off with this...i guess this is the most tangible utterances of my trip from last night that i can gain** if i have any invasive perverse dreams of inane psychobabble i will persist but i doubt it that doubt in such things gives me such comfort to me in the thought that i am in denial of things i can only control for but a fleeting moment unless i try. wish me luck. i hope for a lucid dream, i guess
Don't ask too many questions, because than you start searching for the answers and you might get lost in those questions. Belive me you learned from that trip a lot, even you are not aware of it, but it will keep comming to you for quite some time. Don't search for the answers because you can miss something else that is in front of your nose, but you are not aware of it because you are looking for your answer. Usually that what is in front of your nose offers answer to much more questions than you even looked for. Anyway, well done, that is how acid should be used, one hard dose and than relax for some time, the answers will keep coming, even on the questions that you never thought of.
i think it all comes down to what YOU think and understanding what you think and the perspective you have. Its yours - no one else can go in your mind and observe its inner workings - what ever is inside that skull made out of bone is yours. fathom things the way you will - dont get caught up on other peoples ignorance or arrogance, their simple creatures. do what you have to do to keep yourself doing what needs to be done...value the people you meet that you know knew what you were thinking and you know you knew what they were thinking. live life - fk something..i dno - i think we look for too much sometimes..and forget we here, existing, for one reason. to survive, live, breath - fk..think..act...do.....who - the - fk - knows...no one! and thats the beauty of it..no one does but most think they do..so what does that tell you..understand yourself and do what you do, value the people you value for the right reason - i think you'll find there's not many of them, the worlds full of duds. live..because one day - we all die. and a whole new generation of x,y,z's are born - and they try to fathom the same things we did..or do they? or will they? exist? who knows.
thanks..words can only articulate the mind in one respect though, i think the greatest communication is unspoken.
haha wow. 10 hits is excessive. If you had taken 2 or 3 you would probably still be L crazed. 10 hits in a gulp with no tolerance is the type of trip that would make me never wanna do it again.
haha yeah i guess i kinda thought it out prior that i knew i wasn't going to trip again for a long time i don't feel any sketchy side affects from it either. after that trip i: quit smoking. am eating more healthy. preparing myself for college. quitting the drug habit. it really helped me round out the evaluation of what i want to do in life really. it was a great and horrible trip....worth it completely. but i never want to do it again. i might try shrooms sometime just because well i have never done it before...but besides that i think that is it for my drug life for now. before i did ten i had typically did 5 hits and i hadn't tripped since mid august. **also the rest of that day i was plagued with awkward silences and me saying stuff that nobody understood...it's like absolutely nobody knew what i was saying which means either one of two things nobody really understands what i say anyway and i never really noticed it without the prior cid influence or nobody could understand me due to the cid influence. all my other trips i could explain and tell about of a lot of things that happened during it but i literally couldn't recollect what had happened afterwards very well. i didn't realize i even had tracers until halfway through the trip i was tripping that hard.
hahaha As I said, well done, that's how acid should be used, and also I mentioned that you will never be the same. Until you go through trip like that, you actually didn't know the real face of Lucy. Plenty of things you can't even explain with words. Can you now please try to compare that trip with those trips with little wavy visions and paterns to those guys here that still think that 100 ugs is more than enough dose hahahahahahahaha I still say, until you try 300 ugs and more, you don't have the clue who is Lucy!!
hahahahaha this is so interesting to read. Would like to know how long that healty living will last. All I can say is eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep, work and ocasionally do acid but not less than 300ug
That would also be my response to most of the sentiments presented in your thread. This is how you feel, but when it comes to humans each of us is our own species to a degree. For me, inner peace is a matter of coming to terms with issues and insecurites buried deep within my inner psyche, and releasing them. Cleansing the undesirables (for me) that society has put there when I was too young and naive to realize what watching television and listening to my friends and teachers and parents would do for me. What really makes me happy is confidence, inner strength. Arrogance is actually the opposite of confidence, as far as I'm concerned. Arrogance is a symptom of a vulnerable ego that takes offense when the universe does harm to you by putting you down. Arrogance is insecurity. Inner peace/strength (the same exact thing, you are as strong as you are capable of accepting) is a neurological condition where you are free from the slightest anxiety that plagues most of us without our knowledge. Stress, gravity, doubt, is the real cancer. Cleanse the soul of these things and your life will improve. A man with inner peace could make a vacation out of life in prison or even eternal damnation. I don't know if I'd go as far as take 10 hits, but that's a possibility far down the line. To sum up my viewpoints I'll make the analogy of maggots. Maggots invoke disgust in most of us, a very strong degree of disgust. But it is not the maggots that are a negative, horrible thing. They are a beautiful and vital part of our ecosystem. Rather it is the fear of death and decay that makes us feel disgusted by them. Even when there are no maggots around, if you are someone who is disgusted by their presense, that is a chain holding you back. Enlightenment is merely a neurological condition where external stimulus has no effect on your vibrational level. I believe that men of great inner strength and conviction can walk through fire without being so much as singed and perform other feats we would perceive as miracles. Thought is the strongest force in the universe because with it we control energy. The more inner peace one has learned, the stronger the power of that person's thoughts. These are my own thoughts of course, I cannot speak for anyone else's reality.
