Truth be told: i'm afraid

myself, my shadow, other people, ghosts, aliens, dying, people hating me, crying in front of somebody, pretty much everything. it might seem really stupid, but i actually feel this way.

 

oh yeah, and:

i'm extremely nervous all the time
never lost my virginity...
i feel kinda bad about myself 99.9% of the time
i worry a lot
i have a lot of irrational fears...

yeah, the list goes on. i just felt like blurting it all out because i can. blegh. you just wasted 30 seconds of your day!

 

Have you seen a doctor about your phobias?

Wish I had helpful advice, but I don't. Is there anything that you enjoy doing? Something that helps take your mind off of your anxiety?

 

i used to get those moments in the past

 

Well I don’t hate you so that’s 1 phobia down 8 or so to go. Cheers!

 

welcome to the human species. :tongue:

 

lots of people havent so thats one more off your list dude.

 

Yeah man don't worry about what people think.. it seems like thats the cause of all those fears you have. Just be yourself and who gives a fuck what people think? In life, some people will like you and some people will not like you and thats just how it is so just be yourself!

 

You must be such a brave person to be able to go through so many fears every single day... Stick with it is all i can say...

 

Oh i know - Friends, they make the world seem all that kinder.

 

i'm not really afraid of ghosts or aliens, i just exaggerated a few points to get my point across but it's still all true. guess i just feel really worried all the time for no reason. it's not as much of an outward phobia, as it is one that feels like it eats away at my being every day. and sometimes i get a really bad feeling in the pits of my stomach, reminding me of how dishonest with myself i feel. it definitely sucks

 

I don't know why losing one's virginity is such a big "crossing-over" thing into becoming an adult or that not losing it is going to cause some sort of mental problem because unless you actually see a problem with it, nothing is going to be wrong with you.

(Now, I'm going to use a christian reference in the next paragraph and I just want to let everyone know that they should not try talking about god by themselves, because god does not exist. Believing so might lead you into a state of what I call "FKD up")

Think of priests. They (supposedly) have never lost their virginity (except to little boys) and they *usually* turn out fine. I'm not ragging on ALL priests, but I put asterisks around "usually" because I have known one priest in my life, and they were pretty much a drunken fool. But since he was a serbian-orthodox priest he's aloud to get laid anyways. So I really don't fuckin know how to finish this paragraph because I totally lost my train of thought.

But seriously I didn't lose my virginity til the age of 17 and I thought there was something wrong with that. But looking back, I don't think it was that much of a big deal. I mostly just made myself mentally sick because I was pushed into believing that it IS a big deal.

 

what are you dishonest with yourself about?

 

I know exactly how you feel. Always feeling nervous, always worrying about petty things, letting the stupidest little things eat at you, feeling like a constant fuck up, wanting to hide.. I know it ALL.. it's almost a daily thing for me. And I know it's not any fun. If you ever want to talk, you can PM me. I don't know if I can exactly help but I've found that it's nice to let your feelings out.. especially if the person you're talking to understands what your going through.

 

i don't really know, it's just an overall sense of disconnection. like the feeling of self-abhorrence. i feel like i'm rejecting my own being everyday. i'm still trying to come out of it, but i don't know why i've felt so guilty for so long.

i'm beginning to realize that i just don't love myself. hell, i don't even LIKE myself really that much. but i'm begging to learn how, and i've seen why it matters most. i just want to feel content in my own skin.

 

i know it's kind of a knee-jerk reaction to recommend therapy to people who are unhappy, but in this case i really do think it would be helpful. you need to explore those feelings of guilt and self-rejection and figure out where they came from and how to dissipate them so you can enjoy your life. and it is possible to do that...really.

 

yeah, i mean that's a good thing to consider, but i still do enjoy my life. it's just a subtlety that hangs in the back of my mind that i wish i could get rid of. i think the entire cause is the fact that i can't just accept having, say, a bad day for example. i can't accept just feeling like shit momentarily, if that makes any sense. i think that's why i feel so guiltily dishonest with myself, i can never bring myself to admit what i'm feeling. actually, that's exactly why (there, i said it). i guess i just need to accept things, and be OK because guess what? i'm still alive.

so as a closure i would like to add that I FEEL LIKE SHIT RIGHT NOW [and damn pround of it]

 

alrighty then!

 

You sir are an asshole

 

I have many fears myself, it seems like everyday I find something else I'm afraid of; Bridges, the dark, silence, crossing the road, any kind of creepy crawly thing (even butterflies), being alone and people (figure that one out), crowds, small spaces, choking, germs, hurting someone or being hurt, and that's just a few. Some times people get tired of all of my fears and get mad at me. Anyway, it's good to know that I'm not the only one.