I had the most fucked up day ever! I took a shit load of mushrooms today and spent the day in hell! I began by sitting alone in the dark listening to Matisyahu while envisioning myself turning into liquid, boiling and overflowing...thinking every second, every other second and every second in between about killing myself! I then went outside, went to a lake and played with a fucking tennis ball for an hour or so! Went back to my dorm...went in the bathroom for a long ass time, left. I drove to my dads house, his car was there, but he was not, it was fucked up. my dog was barking at me like crazy for some reason....cause i was fucking insane!!!! I drove back to my dorm, all the way wanting to kill myself, envisioning myself crashing and dying and burning to death in a flaming ball of death! I went back to my dorm to a room full of people I couldnt talk to! I sat in my room alone in the dark for a while and began typing this shit!!!!!! Long story short.......I think I'm going straight edge for a while!
