drowning in loneliness

ok cool, sorry about that...its just been bugging me a lot

 

you can always pm me if you want to talk, i understand the side effects of withdrawals from all of the major anti depressants! and im here still smiling!

 

thanks a lot, you seem pretty fucking rad lol so ill probaly take you up on that offer one of these days

 

the only way to make it is to just smile, shake it off, laugh at yourself, and go on. Keep going forward, no matter how far your pushed back. I have been pushed back so far that when i dont think there is anymore room, the universe finds some for me, and pushes me further, but i wont stop i just keep optimistic and think of my future, it helps me get through my tough times.

 

the universe can be a little bitch, lol

 

lol to true eh

 

yeah. but she can be kind too, she gave me the most perfect little boy, even though hes being a handfull today, and a great husband. 2 things i truly never saw myself having to be honest.

 

You can talk to me too...

Anyways I'll have you know I've been going through the most frustrating medical experience trying to get pregnant... it might not seem like a big deal but when you have to give yourself shots, take meds. that give you migraines and hot flashes, see a doctor twice a week, have catheters stuck in you.... only to go in thinking it's gonna finally happen and have something else go wrong.... well, that was me today. I've wanted to cry all day but I get to try again tomorrow and really in life that's all there is, keep moving, keep believing, keep trying. See the bright side in everything.


:shrugs:

 

thats quite sad, im sorry -hug- thats probaly harder then anything im going thru and u seem to be dealing with it pretty well. so maybe there is hope for me yet...

 

It's okay... I mean, it sucks but whenever it finally does happen I know I'll apprieciatte it all the more. It's just painful how easy it is for some people and it's so hard for me when I want it more then anything....

But, yeah, the only reason I was telling you about that is to make a point that life is hard. Waiting for life to be perfect or even very good to be happy... well, you can wait forever. Attitude has a lot to do with how you experience life. I really think it is the most important thing actually.

 

YES. see, we are all battling through our own hard times, and what you need is to talk to people and know that you are NOT ALONE. trust me, I battle crying all the time, in fact i cried yesterday when we went to our house to pick up some stuff, i layed on the bed, just holding home in as long as i could. Its silly, i know, my husband tells me that home is where me, our son, and he is. not a house.
i have to remind myself that, during these akward changes.

 

Lately it seems I cry all the time.... but when I'm done crying I feel much better.. it really helps relief a lot of the stress.

 

i cry a fair bit, and i find it leaves me feeling worse......and looking for a escape

 

well, im gonna paint this murial for a church thing for halloween that my mom volunteered for, it was very nice talking to you, and add me on your buddy list, so that if im online, you can talk to me, loves to you all, and ps~ thanx luckystripe~

 

An escape?


Hey, I was thinking maybe your gf and you can stay living there for a while and save as much money as you can that in a year or two you can move somewhere else with more to do?


(you're welcome, ghost.... :hug: )

 

its was nice talking to you too, bye for now....

 

an escape= drugs, self mutilation, w/e can help me forget the pain.........asfor the staying here for a few years thing....that was the plan...

 

i think i need spiritual guidance, im going to start looking into a religion i thinks.....

 

Good idea...and meditate.... I find Buddism and Taoism very interesting....


When you feel like cutting yourself, run instead.

 

i cant run, i broke my hip when i was younger and it never healed right....it kinda grinds when i move.....