a little apology from a black-hearted bitch

recently ive been hurting a lot of people and i just want to appologize publicly to the few who are on here....its my first rhyming poem in awhile so the flow isnt all that well...im not so sure about the title tho. all comments critiques welcome

a little apology from a black-hearted bitch

confusing thoughts race through my head
thoughts of love and lust left unled
too many people who have a peice of my heart
i should have known it would turn bad from the start

trying to find a solid thought
and stability for which i sought
i found myself falling and dying
backstabbing and lying

in the end i hurt more than the rest
for hurting people is my failing test
i cant stand to cause others pain
so here i remain
a lost little girl waiting for real love
not that false stuff ive seen thats just a shove
closer to a beating of two bodies together
upon an old peice of leather

i need someone to show me how to feel
someone to show me life and love are real
not just a dream, dreamed up by my depression
where in the end im just a possession