Last night I did shrooms for the third time, and it was the best thing ever!!! I only ate 2-g's and they were gold caps, so there quite potent. Minutes after consumption 0:00+ Ate them around 6, got an ipod for nice music to listen to, kind of paranoid and worried that my trip will b bad. I didnt think i would trip hard at all because the amount i took..Wasnt sure what to expect, but i was definitly optomistic. 0:20+ Started shaking, and my palms got sweaty, got a tingly feeling, and music became more vibrant, and my light perception was thrown off!! i was in a completely dark room, but the blackness of darkness seemed very bright! 0:45 Started feeling paranoid and wierd, like my trip is going bad, but it wasnt really bad, i just felt board out of my mind, and nothing seemed to make me feel better, my brain wasnt comfterble with anything i was doing, and my body felt badddd. i felt like i was wasting my time fuckin myself up and it was all just too dumb, i started regreting doing shrooms, and i thought ill drink some milk if it goes bad and take some vitamin b6, but i thought its worth givin it chance and in a few hours id b back to normal anyway, so i tried to enjoy it, even though it wasnt going to well. 1:15 Felt pretty bad, smoked 2 cigs to mellow myself out, I started noticing how my personality might annoy the people that dont like me, and why it annoys them, i started to understand, and pulling questions out of myself, and questioning existance, and the real value of money, and recreational shit, and material thinngs. basicly i noticed that the way my life is and the things i thought were important werent really important at all. I FELT LIKE I WAS LIVING A LIE, and that "today" is a perfect time to relise that at to change myslef. I dint think i was trippin hard at all but i was really trippin balls, After all LIFE IS A trip lol. So i me and a freind left the house and drove around (he didnt eat shrooms). 2:00 THE DRIVE Listen to Eminem-Without me def helped me feel better, people always say when your on shrooms listen to good music, but FUCK THAT! listen to what u enjoy listening to, think about any good emotions any SONG brings up and listen to it, even if its rap of heavy metal, anything! Different songs made me feel better, and my overall feeling was quite dipressed and annoyed agravated and felt bad vibes, i just didnt feel good, and i was waiting to get back home so i could take a Vitamin b6 and some milk to maybe fade the shrooms off, so i could go to sleep. 2:30 Tried to go to sleep for like 35 minutes i was relaxed but i just couldnt fall asleep, everything on t.v was too crazy, and i could see every single layer on persons face and understand people way more than usuall, i really felt like i knew where everything was coming from, and felt like i was a filter to what soicety throws at me, everything passes me!!! if that makes sence I tossed and turned in bed, and closed my eyes and i saw melting faces and eyeballs but it didnt really bother me because im into art and my imagination is crazy...My 2 freinds that were trippin off 3.5 g's were going insane and trying to hang out with me but i was too agrivated, and i really felt like i wasnt trippin. I felt really uncomfterble, cold, hot, sweaty, dry, etc...I decided to take a shower and kill some time because i wasnt able to fall asleep. 3:05 IN THE SHOWER This is were mytrip turned goooood!! it took me awhile to relize how good everything really was. cold water felt nice, hot water felt nice, i just layed my head on the wall with my eyes closed with water running over me, and i could hear and feel the vibrations from every drop, it was like music almost, but better!! i was thinking "why do i always try to change shit to make shit better?" i noticed thati could comfort myself and appriciate stuff like i never could before i took shrooms. Why do i always try to look for better, why do i always care about more material shit, and fitting in so much??? The bad part of the trip made me relize this, and the good part of the trip made me understand it and know that i have a very bright future infront of me. Why am i not in a good mood all the time??? i could b!! why wouldnt i b?????????? i just felt my body work like robot, and i felt in total control of everything..I layed in the bathtub, and the curtains tripped me the fuck out, my perception was totally off, close things were out of reach and far away things were close to me lol think about that!!1 I drank a lot of water from the bathtub, and i was thinkin, "this is dirty water??? NO! its water its good forthe body, and way better than smoking weed or eating a hamburger at mcdonalds, why didnt i relize and appriciate this before??? so after going CRAZY in the shower and feelling great, and watching my body turn yellow, blue, and green. I dried myslef off and felt completely comfterble with my body and me as a person, i felt as if i could talk and look and say what i wanna say and no one could discourage me! I could say i love my freinds to there face and i could say i wanna hug them because there my buddies and they didnt think i was gay and it was totally acceptable. it was really nice! why do people think shit matters so much when things really dont matter...PEOPLE NEED LOOK above money, above what if's, and what people think about them, appriciate yourself and respect yourself. 3:45 Stepped out of the shower, walked out and felt totally tranquil, not great but deff not bad! i felt understanding and felt that my emotions are totally alive, and i am as alive and as awake as good as ive ever been, why not? my whole life is ahead of me, i could do what ever i want!! cops and authority could lock me up but still i could do what ever i want, cops could put me in a cage, but in that cage i could let my brain take me AWAY! and i noticeed that i could b by myself and enjoy the company! I started hanging out with my other 2 freinds that were tripping off 3.5 g's and we had awesome conversations. i brought up that when people have bad trips they say "everything doesnt matter, everything is nothing!!" but really since everything is nothing and everything doesnt matter, nothing is everything and nothing is more complicated and abstract as everything. my freinds said they love me, and we were talkin like we were family. we really felt a connection, and they said they understand me like they never did before and they think im smarter than they thought i was before. 4:20 left the room because my freinds were coming down and were feeling depressed and they wanted to leave them alone and let them be. I treid to play halo with racing positive thoughts, i swear i pradicted the future i thought about a conversation i had with my freind and an hour later my thoughts became alive exactly as i imagined it was quite freaky but quite awesome at the same time. I noticed how the aiming focus/circle in the game never moves at all! it stayed at the same time all the time and it never moves a milli meter! everything else moves around but the damn circle stays at the same place! i thought it was the other way around lol, I thought WOW people play this game all the time, it all comes down to that little circle...nothing really matters outside that little circle! CRAZZZY! 5:15 started coming down, felt great, felt as smart as ive ever been, and as positive as ive ever been! still trippy.. I decided to start rollin a blunt for the comedown, and after smoking it i thought i should drive around with a good freind of mine, and talk about things... so i did...i relized a lot of things about how the human brain works, and how if people trust their first gut feeling and just trust themselfs and never doubt themselfs they could b a lot more secessful and in a peace of mind really. 6:00 felt awesome, very blazed off the blunt, felt like my brain was freid but still wide awake... I felt like i need to get things accomplished more, and i shouldnt smoke weed all the time because i mean its fun and brings up goodtimes but its not something that should b ABUSED. REMEMBER THAT! also i saw faces in the corner of my eyes, i saw a truck divide in half and morph into itslef it was crazy! i felt where everyone was coming from, like if somone was truly happy i could see it on them, if somone was not really happy or fake i could CLEARLy see it on them. i felt great and i just went back home after another drive, and played some basketball on xbox360 and then fell asleep. IT WAS AMAZING! VERY POSITIVE, and good. say something people, talk to me tell me what you think! peace and love.
no comments huh?! well i have something else to say bout shrooms also... some people think they fit into the average category before they do shrooms, and then when they do shrooms they feel and notice how different they are, and how different everyone and everything is, and they get lost and get scared or w/e. some people think theyre unique and very different than the average person before they do shrooms, and then when they do shrooms they find out that everyone is different in the same sence. a lot of people go out of theyre way to be different than the average person, and on shrooms u notice that even if you try to b different other people probably try to b different in the same way. idk if that makes sense, but its really hard to trip off psychadelics and not get into a stressful, annoying, mindfucked state, on the other hand u experiance things the average joe doesnt experiance, and u feel and understand life and concepts, at some point, better than someone who did not experiment with psychadelics. i know there is a lot to gain, but i also think its risky, and theres a lot to be lost if something does go wrong, and if you are comfterble with your life and u like the way things are, idk if its a good idea to fuck with psychadelics b/c if it fucks with ur mind too much, u migth lose that feeling....its like rolling dice really!
Some good stuff, I'm glad you did end up having a good trip. I'm in a similar state as you were at the beginning, I might be tripping on acid later this week and I don't know what I'm gonna do. I could either do it by myself and go walking through deep woods from dawn till dusk, or I could trip with a close friend of mind and just go whereever we feel like going, but I want someplace that will be REALLY awesome.... The last trip I had I was by myself though, and I would like to trip with other people because they bring other ideas to the table besides my own. I wish there was a crowd into psychedelics around here, but the friend I'll be tripping with is the only close friend I have into psychedelics besides this other girl Becca, but she's at college. hm....
