The tears you stopped from coming, the pain you started numbing, making life easy to live and easy to forgive, the anger your introduced, the pain you induced, to those who said they loved me, who wanted to hug me, you isolated my smile, after a while, you became my truest lust, my only love, for you were the only one who didn't judge me for my stupidity. The day I chose to say good bye, and chose to close my eyes, to come down from uphoria, only wanting to hold you, When I cried it was not real tears but that of fear, when I shook it was not by choice but by your advice, when I got angry it was with myself, for there was only me to blame, when I wanted you SO bad, I turned my head and ran, life was just a snow white dream, nothing was as it seems, you masked pain for happiness, loneliness for laughing, longing for love as a new man in my arms. The dream became color when I said goodbye to you, I did what I had to do, chose to say I was through, And still to this day you haunt me inside, it's you who cries for me to come back int your arms, in your harms, in your deathly grip I will not cave now, for I tossed you aside and I hold my head in pride, my body prestine, I am CLEAN!
this definately hit a soft spot for me...and i felt like i could relate to it for the most part. very deep and well written. id love to read more from you. may peace and love find you. Amber
